What a crappy weekend started on a high and ending on why do I bleeping Bother I actually give up I just don't want to be here anymore.... Im just sick of feeling shat on and alone 
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I know exactly how you feel. Life is so tough. Even tougher when you have children. If thereās anything you want to talk about or get off your chest, Iām here to listen and help if I can. From what Iāve read on here, I feel like our stories are very similar. Iāve had to pick up the pieces, for my children, so many times. I really do hope youāre okWhat a crappy weekend started on a high and ending on why do I bleeping Bother I actually give up I just don't want to be here anymore.... Im just sick of feeling shat on and alone
Oh lovely, do you want to talk about it?What a crappy weekend started on a high and ending on why do I bleeping Bother I actually give up I just don't want to be here anymore.... Im just sick of feeling shat on and alone
Ex or kids?
You have overcome *so* much, I know this sounds patronising and I truly donāt mean it to be, but you really have shown how strong you are to keep going when things have been so so hard.
Look at that gorgeous dog of yours, know how much and how unconditionally she loves you, drag yourself out if you can for a walk and cry it out if it will help (only saying this as a suggestion as I know getting out every day helps you).
Do you feel that you might harm or attempt worse again?
If youāre feeling the urge to, please call the GP, Samaritans or 111.
Promise me you will talk to someone before you give in to the urge? Or even post on here so we can talk to you until it passes, I can be about but maybe not immediately as have littlest at home xx
Hi guys Iām sorry for posting on here you seem to all know each other and Iām sorry if you would prefer me to post elsewhere. I know I am going to end things soon and I feel like I am too scared to jump or OD incase I wake up. The other alternative: Iām not sure how to do it. I am worried I will do it wrong. Anyway Iām not sure why Iām writing this but i canāt find anything online for tips on how to be successful. Xx
We only know each other from here, so you are more than welcome
I know when it feels like there is no way to keep going, someone saying please donāt do it doesnāt help, but Iām going to say it anyway.
Obviously I donāt know your situation or whatās led you to this point, and Iām not going to say āthings will get betterā or ātomorrow might feel differentā as I know that, right now, you canāt feel that.
What I am going to say is, I believe that by posting here you want a connection with someone.
Youāve got that. Iām here.
xx
Popping these links here for anyone who may need them. (These are the ones given in emails from my psychiatristās office)
Tagging @Phil McCrackin particularly, also @ilovepizza21 x
- You can always access emergency support via GP, 111 or A&E
- Call the Samaritans on 116123
- Text "SHOUT" to 85258 to contact the Shout Crisis Text Line
- Use the Staying Safe Website https://stayingsafe.net
- Call SANEline on 0300 304 7000
- Papyrus HOPELINEUK. If you're under 35 and struggling with suicidal feelings, or concerned about a young person who might be struggling, you can call Papyrus HOPELINEUK on 0800 068 4141 (weekdays 10am-10pm, weekends 2pm-10pm and bank holidays 2pm-10pm), email [email protected] or text 07786 209 697
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Please stay and post here, we only know each through sharing our thoughts and feelings on this thread, and the advice from others have helped me soo much.
@Pollyanna263 has given out some great links, but there's always someone around in this thread to chat to.
Please take care
I can only echo what the other two have said.
Please, please reach out if you can to someone via phone or message. Those resources @Pollyanna263 are there to help and listen if you need it.
As @Maid22 pointed out, we are all here because we need a place to be. You are as welcome as anyone. We pop in and out as and when and there will be always be someone around.
Donāt worry about what you post. Say what you need. That is what this thread is for.
Xxx
Of course you can post here
I totally agree with what everyone else has said. And especially this from @Pollyanna263 -
āI believe that by posting here you want a connection with someoneā.
You can just join in and start chatting. No-one here will judge you for how youāre feeling, we all understand one way or another.
I donāt post in here much as I never know how to write it all down but I always come and read everyoneās posts. I just wanted to say, Iām in the exact same headspace as you. The things you have written I could have written. I just wanted to post to let you know there is someone else feeling this way and youāre not alone in your feelings. Itās very scary I know. I hope things can get better for us
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Does anyone else feel content alone?
I'm exactly the same as you. I find social interaction tiring and quite fake in a lot of ways. People just can't accept loners for some reason and always assume there's something weird going on - it's all why why why. Be proud of being independent and picky about who you talk to. Feels good to know other people feel the same way. People always try to 'fix things' but some things are just not fixable. My wanting and needing isolation is the only way I can cope with life and for the most part I like it.
I'm exactly the same as you. I find social interaction tiring and quite fake in a lot of ways. People just can't accept loners for some reason and always assume there's something weird going on - it's all why why why. Be proud of being independent and picky about who you talk to. Feels good to know other people feel the same way. People always try to 'fix things' but some things are just not fixable. My wanting and needing isolation is the only way I can cope with life and for the most part I like it.
I'm like you, I like my own company. There's a few people I feel comfortable with outside of family, other than that I'm happy just to be by myself. I could see myself becoming a hermit VERY easily.
You are a diamond for reaching out to someone when things arenāt easy for you right now
Iām thinking of you and @Phil McCrackin . Please know weāre if you need some company x
Thank you hun. I hope they saw it and maybe felt less alone even for a few moments. XYou are a diamond for reaching out to someone when things arenāt easy for you right now
Iām thinking of you and @Phil McCrackin . Please know weāre if you need some company x
Iām new here and just reading through the forums, I suffer with depression and anxiety and recently diagnosed with cptsd so can relate to a lot on the thread but reading through this is heartbreaking at the same time - hate to think of others suffering so much - mental health issues are awful. Youāre a strong bunch to be able to open up on here and I really hope youāre able to find a way of getting out of the black hole and seeing some happiness in life! Xx
I canāt sleep. I just find it so hard to keep on top of things in life, and I just keep screwing things up.
I just want to get help, I hate having to wait so long. It makes me feel so lonely, because people I know donāt understand that being depressed just makes things so hard, and itās like theres no space in your brain to think about anything.
I just want to get help, I hate having to wait so long. It makes me feel so lonely, because people I know donāt understand that being depressed just makes things so hard, and itās like theres no space in your brain to think about anything.
Sorry to hear lovely you're going through a bad time, insomnia is a witch, it's hard enough to function when you're in a dark head space, made even worse without sleep. I really hope you get the help you need soon x
So true what you say about insomnia. People have been driven mad by lack of sleep and it makes everything difficult to cope with. A very under-estimated condition and medication is not the answer in the long run. My heart goes out to anyone who is tortured by exhaustion.
Iāve got a leak in my kitchen.
Iāve done what I can to find and fix but I think itās beyond my (basic) skills.
Iām going to have to call my landlord.
Heās going to come to my house.
My house is a bit of a mess.
Itās not very clean.
Itās not awful but itās not landlord being here clean. (I have 2 kids and a dog who add to the mess and dirt and donāt really help clean and tidy.)
Iām going to have to clean before I call.
Iām going to use a load of energy I donāt have and burn myself out.
Arghhhhhhhhhh.
I wish my house was more clean and tidy.
Oh and my grass is basically dead and my landlord is sort of precious about the garden (dunno why as heās never lived here)
(I also still havenāt washed my hair)
No reply needed. Just needed to get it out and think someone here might understand or at least not judge me.
Iāve done what I can to find and fix but I think itās beyond my (basic) skills.
Iām going to have to call my landlord.
Heās going to come to my house.
My house is a bit of a mess.
Itās not very clean.
Itās not awful but itās not landlord being here clean. (I have 2 kids and a dog who add to the mess and dirt and donāt really help clean and tidy.)
Iām going to have to clean before I call.
Iām going to use a load of energy I donāt have and burn myself out.
Arghhhhhhhhhh.
I wish my house was more clean and tidy.
Oh and my grass is basically dead and my landlord is sort of precious about the garden (dunno why as heās never lived here)
(I also still havenāt washed my hair)
No reply needed. Just needed to get it out and think someone here might understand or at least not judge me.
Thank you so so much everyone it really means a lot. Iāve spent the last couple of days reaching out to family and I feel a lot better just talking and being honest about my feelings. Youāve made me realise that Iām not alone and Iām so grateful. Iāve spoken with my doctor and wrote a plan down on how to move forward. Again thank you all so much. We will get through it all together. Sending love
I'm in the same position as Pollyanna; my worst nightmare is having people in to fix things in the house and the worry of having to clean everything and make conversation. I feel like Miss Havisham with a crumbling old house and cobwebs on the cobwebs. The only answer is to get cleaning and bite the bullet. I'm sure we can tackle it Pollyanna and if you've got kids and a dog he'll understand.
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