The Depression Thread #2

[Lara98]

A lot of us know that awkward waiting phase all too well. You made a huge step checking in with doc and co-ordinating all those appointments, so well done! Don’t be hard on yourself, use this in between time to get plenty of rest. Don’t be as strict on yourself with house work and fake tan etc… if you had an illness bug you wouldn’t be forcing yourself to do it. Mental health problems are an illness so loads of rest is required. 🤍

RE. motivation to get the hair washed/showered etc. i have been in slumps like this before and sometimes it helped to tell myself I just had to turn on the water in the shower, I didn’t have to get in. Usually by the time I was stood there looking at the running water I would choose to get in.

I would also try and seize a moment of motivation in the moment if I had time. i.e if you wake up on a Saturday morning and think ‘yes I’ll do the laundry this afternoon’ I try tell myself I’ll just do it now while I have this burst of motivation and it’ll be even easier!

This is definitely the right place hun try gp and go from there. This thread is amazing normally I talk to my best friend but lately I don't talk to anymore but have ranted on here and it does help for a moment.... there are beautiful souls on here often that have been through the same you got this sending hugs 🫂 x

Thank you both!

So the care co ordinator never called me back lol...
However my psychologist from hospital did and she said she's going to type up a report for me to give to my GP to refer me to some specialist places. She said she can help but she only works in one area and it seems like I need support in a few areas. Just helps knowing that one person is trying to help me. I just want to feel happy, confident and worry free again and try understand my self better.

 

[ilovepizza21]

TW. SH.

Guys I’m really struggling and I don’t know what to do. I was on aripiprazole for a week and they took me off it, I asked to be put on an alternative (was taken off it bc it was making my tongue twitch involuntarily/couldn’t sleep) I called Friday and they said they’d call back but haven’t I can’t call again anxiety is crippling me. I feel so low, I’ve SH, I feel like a dick. I want to reach out but I just can’t. I just want to not be a ghost. I want to be well. I hate this.

I use to SH alot i have stopped and not needed to lately which is good. Please don't feel like a dick because YOU are not... you say you don't want to reach out you just have on here so that is a fabulous step so be proud of that. Maybe try talking to your gp or someone you can trust it may take the weight a little from your shoulders. Again this thread is fabulous here if you need to rant some more 🫂

 

[Pollyanna263]

Just checking in. I’m reading, and sending love to all who need it.
I’m so sorry I don’t have capacity to reply individually right now. But I am reading.
Keep talking if it helps xxx

 

[ilovepizza21]

So after my last post things took another worse turn this morning son refused to go to school he ended up kicking off and getting really angry.... when this happens I get assulted so I have a bruised arm and back...took daughter to school and walked dog door bell rang police at the door someone reported the assulted... school said it wasn't them and next door said the same so no idea who it was... told them I was fine and didn't want to talk and early help and ss where useless last time... but they have referred to ss again (this isn't the first time he is truly a good kid and these don't happen often but they still awful when the do). School came out and did take him too school which was good.... I got a telephone appointment from doctors but 5mins later was called and said the doctors wants to see me.... I hardly spoke just cried told me to refer myself for talking therapy (I know I wont do this) and I agreed to go back on meds I use to be on citalopram but it didn't work for me so took myself off it b4 Xmas.... So she put me on sertraline and wants to see me in 4weeks b4 putting dose up and to see how it's working.... has anyone else on sertaline how have you found it as I'm uneasy taking it tbh.

@Pollyanna263 sending you hugs 🫂

 

[Pollyanna263]

Just checking in

 

[Fanny Muchmore]

I spoke to my GP yesterday. She was really lovely and supportive and is going to change my antidepressants. Not sure if we're allowed to mention medications here, but I have to do 3 weeks on a half dose of what I'm on now, then switch to the new medication.

 

[Eeyore147]

Just checking in

Just checking in with you too hope you’re doing ok.

I’ve had a Psych review the other week and usual CPN review this week. Just day by day xx

I spoke to my GP yesterday. She was really lovely and supportive and is going to change my antidepressants. Not sure if we're allowed to mention medications here, but I have to do 3 weeks on a half dose of what I'm on now, then switch to the new medication.

Everything crossed they work for you

 

[Pollyanna263]

I spoke to my GP yesterday. She was really lovely and supportive and is going to change my antidepressants. Not sure if we're allowed to mention medications here, but I have to do 3 weeks on a half dose of what I'm on now, then switch to the new medication.

I think we’re okay to mention meds.

Really hope the changes helps x

 

[Fanny Muchmore]

OK, thanks, I WAS on Duloxetine, I've beeb switched to Zoloft.

 

[Pollyanna263]

@ilovepizza21 you okay? Just saw your post on the other thread that you’re in hospital. MH or physical?
You know we’re here whatever xxxxx

 

[Pollyanna263]

I love this account. She always gets it so right.

 

[barmcake]

I love this account. She always gets it so right.

Just brilliant - exactly how it feels.

 

[newaccount2022]

Finally bucked up to go to therapy and was due to start this morning at 9am. Main issue I wanted to deal with is not feeling important or special to anyone, like I’m invisible and nobody would notice if I just dropped off the earth.

Therapist texts at 8.55 she forgot to set an alarm and won’t make it. Innocent mistake I know and I’m not annoyed with her. Just feel like it’s a typical thing that would happen to me and it reinforces my feeling that I don’t matter. Crying in the middle of town now lol

 

[StillLucilleBluth]

Finally bucked up to go to therapy and was due to start this morning at 9am. Main issue I wanted to deal with is not feeling important or special to anyone, like I’m invisible and nobody would notice if I just dropped off the earth.

Therapist texts at 8.55 she forgot to set an alarm and won’t make it. Innocent mistake I know and I’m not annoyed with her. Just feel like it’s a typical thing that would happen to me and it reinforces my feeling that I don’t matter. Crying in the middle of town now lol

I’m sorry that happened. I think I’d feel the same way. Plus I’d be annoyed

You’ve done the hard bit though - organising it and getting up and going. Well done for that and I hope the session goes well whenever it’s rescheduled for.

 

[Blue Rose]

I’ve been feeling pretty good recently, however I’ve had a couple of calls now from mental health and well-being services. I ignored them at first because they were from unknown numbers and I assumed they were prank or cold callers but looked them up and realised they’re from charities. I have reached out to my university’s counselling services and used childline when I was younger but have never called any of these services before and have no idea why they are calling me. One time when I 17 I got drunk and did some stupid things before venting to a counsellor on childline, prompting them to send police and paramedics to my house. It was the worst night of my life and now I’m paranoid it’s going to happen again. Has anyone else ever experienced this before?

 

[no-no]

I’ve been feeling pretty good recently, however I’ve had a couple of calls now from mental health and well-being services. I ignored them at first because they were from unknown numbers and I assumed they were prank or cold callers but looked them up and realised they’re from charities. I have reached out to my university’s counselling services and used childline when I was younger but have never called any of these services before and have no idea why they are calling me. One time when I 17 I got drunk and did some stupid things before venting to a counsellor on childline, prompting them to send police and paramedics to my house. It was the worst night of my life and now I’m paranoid it’s going to happen again. Has anyone else ever experienced this before?

Glad to hear you’re feeling good lately. They all have a “duty of care” so if you state or insinuate you will harm yourself they can do this. Try not to be paranoid if you think reaching out to the agencies will help, but if you give them cause for concern they will contact other services and it can be heavy-handed as you’ve found.

 

[Blue Rose]

Glad to hear you’re feeling good lately. They all have a “duty of care” so if you state or insinuate you will harm yourself they can do this. Try not to be paranoid if you think reaching out to the agencies will help, but if you give them cause for concern they will contact other services and it can be heavy-handed as you’ve found.

Thanks. I have been really paranoid today and jumping whenever the doorbell rang. I did email one of the services to explain that I’m fine and there’s probably been a mix so hopefully it’ll all be ok. I think I was just worried since I’ve never actually given my phone number to any mh services I’ve used and have never used any of the ones that contacted me.

 

[no-no]

Thanks. I have been really paranoid today and jumping whenever the doorbell rang. I did email one of the services to explain that I’m fine and there’s probably been a mix so hopefully it’ll all be ok. I think I was just worried since I’ve never actually given my phone number to any mh services I’ve used and have never used any of the ones that contacted me.

It will be fine. Could anyone you have contacted referred you? There’s no need to worry if you’ve not spoken with them, it’s just if you interact and tell them something that they have to “follow up” on. Understandable you feel that way given what happened previously. Even though you’re in a good place now do consider any decent offers for support.

 

[Pollyanna263]

@ilovepizza21 we’re here when you’re ready. You don’t need to explain why you were in hospital, or what happened, if you don’t want to or feel able.

Just know that we’re here. No judgement. Just understanding xx

 

[E.T]

I hope you’re all ok I’ve only just found this thread so haven’t read everything but from what I have read you guys are amazing. Life’s so hard. I’m not ready to talk about my own mental health, I hope one day I can. But I’m here for support. You’re never alone. Always remember that