I have been following Siobhan for years and have lurked on these threads for a long time and agreed with almost everything I've read. I still feel a bit conflicted. I sway between dismay, disgust and pity usually. I reflected and wondered if some part of me was a little bit jealous - I'm not entirely happy with work (who is?!), staying in one place in one relationship can at times feel a bit claustrophobic (again, entirely normal), I love travelling but rarely have the money or time (and haven't even considered it in a pandemic), I wish I earned more and Siobhan earns A LOT of money doing seemingly very little and rather unethically.
I have come to the conclusion that most of my feelings culminate in pity and here is why. Siobhan has to live with herself. Forever. She has to exist as the person we see her to be. And I wouldn't wish that on anyone.
I don't know if it's ego or denial, but her continual pattern of burying her head in the sand, deflecting, making excuses for "hate" she receives and general complete inability to take on any form of feedback or critique will catch up with her at some point. It is very abnormal and anti-social to behave in this way. Humans do not like the person who sees themselves as infallible and projects on to them. I read people's theories for months on the dynamic between her and Sinead - it was suspected that Siobhan had some kind of superiority complex and was jealous of Sinead, but to see it so blatantly and obviously in Direns podcast was shocking. The fact Siobhan shared links to it highlighting her seemingly complete ignorance that her behaviour and words towards Sinead in that hour were ignorant and belittling at best and cruel and abusive at worst was even more shocking to me. I think if Siobhan is reading this, please look back on the podcast with a critical eye - your behaviour was shocking and you owe Sinead an apology tbh. Then work out why you did and said what you did - what is missing in your life that you felt the need to do/say those things and take over?
I haven't had great mental health over the last number of years, but with some professional support and a lot of soul searching and reflection I am very happy with the person I am.
I give generously to friends and charity because i'm an empathetic and nice person - I don't do it to deflect from a scandal.
I would sooner wait another year for a vaccine than jump the queue in front of the most vulnerable and disenfranchised in society.
I don't know how anyone can promote shorts and leggings that cost less than a tenner. Not knowing or a lack of awareness is not an excuse in 2021. I care deeply about the environment and the welfare of people in all countries and that is reflected in my shopping habits/choices and lifestyle.
Cooking brings me so much joy. And exercise. I can enjoy them without overthinking them too much.
I have genuine friends that I could rely on for anything, and who don't expect anything of me. I don't need to buy their love and loyalty.
I don't earn enough for what my job is, but it's good honest work, I have everything I need and have retained my privacy and integrity.
When I compare myself to Siobhan, the over-riding feeling is pity. She might earn x5 more than me, have loads of followers, get nice comments and compliments every day, she might travel more and have a flatter stomach but so much of her life is vacuous and surface-level. I believe under all the bullshit and dishonesty, there's a good person underneath it all, but she needs to do a lot of changing which she currently is unwilling to do.
I have come to the conclusion that most of my feelings culminate in pity and here is why. Siobhan has to live with herself. Forever. She has to exist as the person we see her to be. And I wouldn't wish that on anyone.
I don't know if it's ego or denial, but her continual pattern of burying her head in the sand, deflecting, making excuses for "hate" she receives and general complete inability to take on any form of feedback or critique will catch up with her at some point. It is very abnormal and anti-social to behave in this way. Humans do not like the person who sees themselves as infallible and projects on to them. I read people's theories for months on the dynamic between her and Sinead - it was suspected that Siobhan had some kind of superiority complex and was jealous of Sinead, but to see it so blatantly and obviously in Direns podcast was shocking. The fact Siobhan shared links to it highlighting her seemingly complete ignorance that her behaviour and words towards Sinead in that hour were ignorant and belittling at best and cruel and abusive at worst was even more shocking to me. I think if Siobhan is reading this, please look back on the podcast with a critical eye - your behaviour was shocking and you owe Sinead an apology tbh. Then work out why you did and said what you did - what is missing in your life that you felt the need to do/say those things and take over?
I haven't had great mental health over the last number of years, but with some professional support and a lot of soul searching and reflection I am very happy with the person I am.
I give generously to friends and charity because i'm an empathetic and nice person - I don't do it to deflect from a scandal.
I would sooner wait another year for a vaccine than jump the queue in front of the most vulnerable and disenfranchised in society.
I don't know how anyone can promote shorts and leggings that cost less than a tenner. Not knowing or a lack of awareness is not an excuse in 2021. I care deeply about the environment and the welfare of people in all countries and that is reflected in my shopping habits/choices and lifestyle.
Cooking brings me so much joy. And exercise. I can enjoy them without overthinking them too much.
I have genuine friends that I could rely on for anything, and who don't expect anything of me. I don't need to buy their love and loyalty.
I don't earn enough for what my job is, but it's good honest work, I have everything I need and have retained my privacy and integrity.
When I compare myself to Siobhan, the over-riding feeling is pity. She might earn x5 more than me, have loads of followers, get nice comments and compliments every day, she might travel more and have a flatter stomach but so much of her life is vacuous and surface-level. I believe under all the bullshit and dishonesty, there's a good person underneath it all, but she needs to do a lot of changing which she currently is unwilling to do.
I suppose I started following her because at the time I was single and travelling/working in different countries (although not online) and related to some of the thing she said. I’m now engaged and have been settled in one place for the last few years so like all of us here my follow really is a car crash that I can’t look away from. 
. A few of you have actually hit the nail on the head when you’ve said you recognise her behaviours either from your younger self or those around you, the monumental difference being we’ve all grown out of it by now.
Foreigners are not nearly as welcome as she thinks they are and she has a long fall off her high horse thinking she contributes to the country (Thailand or Indonesia) or improving things for them in any way.
