I do kinda feel bad for her as I feel with her life with Ben, as much as she dismisses it, she hasn't lived up to her full potential and I think her motivation and lust for, well, life really, has been completely masked by her feeling insecure, lack of control (ED) and the feeling of needing to belong to someone and be loved so deeply by someone. If Ben gives her that, I'm truly happy for her as much as the relationship at the time was wrong. But honestly, I think she settled for someone who promised her the world and gave her the attention she craved oh so badly.
I do think she loves Freya despite not having much of a clue when it comes to the sun and selling her life with her and the photos which should remain private. But I think deep down Ben wanted Freya and she could've been happy living this oh so dreamy life for a while longer. I'm not sure with her, she seeks attention and even validation {?} Online so whatever is happening isn't enough for her still. Even reading here which we've established she does, it's still attention on her negative or not but I feel like bad for her. I feel so deeply sorry that she was put into that situation be it her parents or Ben as he must've preyed on this. Like her or not, she is creative and she has talents and passions and I wonder what she could achieve if she didn't strive for this attention. She has this gorgeous home and garden and this allotment and even a beautiful daughter and it still isn't enough and she seeks going away to share to thousands online for validation and attention.