I have a recognised anxiety disorder and I've struggled with since childhood and throughout my adult life. I didn't really know that was the problem until the last seven years or so. I would say that understanding what anxiety was, how my problem had arisen and how it affected me really helped me to see why I was struggling so much and that led to educating myself extensively on it. I've also sought therapy. I know that to maintain a semblance of a normal life I have to constantly put work in to keep myself grounded and check in with myself. I'm still learning and honestly I find it as boring as duck at times. I feel like I'm always having to put in alot of time just to tread water. I just want to be "well" and not have to think about stuff alot of other people take for granted. So I do find it incredibly frustrating when people like your ex and possibly the younger generation coming up just refuse to do things because they "get anxiety". At times my anxiety has been very severe but I was too frightened to ask for help. I've suffered a lot but I've always held down a full time job, paid my own way and fulfilled my obligations to others. Just sometimes not very well and I'll admit that I find it hard to commit to others much when I can have such big dips in ability to cope. I also try not to mention it too much to other people as I know its now becoming a big cliche.
You're totally right that feeling anxious is normal. But avoiding it only makes it worse so it has to just be accepted as normal. I think there is alot of pathologising about mental health conditions. There needs to be awareness but not so much labelling. The younger generation need to understand that a range of emotions is normal and that the "bad" ones are needed as much as the "good" ones.
I could have written this. Professionally, I’m not doing what I wanted to do because my brain was not wired well to cope with Uni, and there were no support systems in place then because girls didn’t have autism or ND conditions. Despite that, I’m pretty successful in a very male dominated environment and to get there was a battle against 20-25 years of sexism, harrassment (including 2 incidents of what would now be considered actual sexual assault - but brushed off as to be expected as a young woman in a male dominated environment
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), bullying and fighting against the old boys club. It was so bad at times I would cry in my car before going in. I went in anyway. Things are so, so much better for our new starters now, and I’m very involved in being a part of that change, but I find myself getting annoyed at the lack of professional responsibility some of our intake have. I really try not to minimise but I be would have killed for some of the problems that they refuse to work through being all I had to deal with.
Couple that with childhood traumas and a couple of ND diagnoses (only made in my 30s but lived with since I was tiny) it’s been very, very hard to progress. I support our younger intakes within my org and I’m frightened for them as it seems that in the main(generalising here) they are not being taught to deal with stuff, rather exclude themselves because they ‘can’t’ do it because of x, y, z, diagnosis which tells them they won’t be able to do it and more importantly they don’t have to and no-one can make them.
So they can’t do half the job that they are hired to do (it’s a regulated industry so it’s not really a choice). I also worry that they’re taught to be super reactive to horrible things that people say, (the outrage cycle), rather than being taught to try and manage how to deflect and not let those kind of people and words affect you negatively. We’re never going to stop some people being absolutely vile, but we can teach our younger generations to deal with that without launching into an over emotional response and giving those type of people a reaction.