Had a (major) wobble today. Baby Bluebird refused sleep all day again and was a cranky one; itās either napping for 3+ hours or nothing with her. KLM cancelled my flight to America and itās been a nightmare finding a new flight that balances time away vs time for the wedding. Not to mention, Iām experiencing major anxiety about leaving her Friday to Monday. Weāve never been apart and now 2 new people (in laws) are taking care of her and what if she rejects me when Iām home. No matter what decision I make, Iāll regret it ā leaving her and if sheās miserable , or missing my brotherās wedding. Or sheās totally fine and all is well, itās hard to say. And I feel guilt because, to be quite honest, I need a break and would like to feel like my āoldā self for a little bit ā take a bath, have some wine, my day not be dictated by naps.