As a child I never wore underwear. My mum wouldn’t buy it for me. When I had my first period she had to buy pants for me. She was so angry about it. At age 14 when I used to go to the local youth club with my friends, I was wearing my school uniform. I used to lie and say it was because I got in late so didn’t have time to change. The truth was I owned one skirt and a pair of very tight jeans one blouse and a jumper. My parents wouldn’t buy me or my brother clothing. My gran knit us jumpers and cardigans. My mother worked as a barmaid. She used to get glammed up for her shifts. New clothes ever week almost, clouds of perfume, layers of make up. She would never let me wear any of her clothes. When I was 10 we went to visit one of my aunties who had a new hobby of dressmakin. She made me a beautiful pink spotted empire line dress that flared out when you span around. I wore it immediately. I felt like a Princess in it. We were going down some stairs in a department store later that day. I must have been smiling or fluffing out my new dress. My mum grabbed me roughly, her teeth were clenched together in a snarl and she said something very mean to me which I won’t repeat here. The next morning I couldn’t find my dress. It was gone. At first I thought someone had washed it. But it was gone, never saw it again. Even now, I wear the same clothing over and over again. A couple of weeks ago I got attacked by a man in out town centre. Ambulance staff had to cut my clothing off me. Police took some of it away for dna testing. The jumper I was wearing I had worn for seven years, almost everyday. I really miss it. I have a daughter. I don’t understand how my mum could have treated me that way. I would walk through fire fir mine.