I keep going for unsure as guilty without everything feels so damning, I am leaning towards guilty though. Which in some ways is a relief, as the thought of someone innocent going through that is unthinkable. But in another way is more horrific than you can verbalise. i think a few of us feel the same, it’s this weird sort of unsettled feeling.
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Thanks,
@nosycowmoo
Is it possible she was referring to a feeling of isolation rather than literal isolation? I’ve had times where I seem to be active socially but anything but really.
I do get what you mean by this. And sometimes, memories can be inconsistent. Doesn't mean we're blatantly lying. For her, as well as everyone else, there's been an awful lot of information to process, as well as memories. I have felt a little off about voting 'guilty' before hearing everything but done so because of the patterning that seems to have emerged in her behaviour, on many counts. These echo with the behaviours of other convicted murderers from the medical profession.
The patterning, for me, is overwhelming:
-Trophy collecting (the infamous handover sheets, etc.)
-Need for attention and validation, clear through her multiple messages
-Blank denial of ANY culpability, even in relatively benign circumstances
-Evidence of personality disorder (not that this in itself, makes anyone a criminal)
-Someone who may be playing the role of someone very socially engaged but still feeling 'separated' because of her personality issues
-The facts about her being present or evidence of her input with ALL the babies, whereas nobody else meets that profile
-Two of the babies, everyone (including herself) accepts, were poisoned by insulin. There has been nobody else shown to potentially accountable.
-The extreme, awful, circumstances in which all of these babies suffered suggest something far more sinister than ward incompetence/ staffing levels
-Statistically, these infant 'attacks'/ unlikely deaths are off the scale
-Was this happening on this ward before her presence at COCH? What happened
after she was removed, in terms of incidents?
-I also think there will be more to come out, which has not yet been disclosed for the purposes of giving Letby a 'fair' trial, regarding counts upon which she's been charged
I could go on....
It's horrific, to even contemplate the lengths to someone who, on the surface, seemed such a regular, ordinary person could go to these sadistic lengths but as we know from previous cases, it's often the way. These killers often do a pretty good job of covering their tracks but the need to act often overpowers self-control and that's when the recklessness kicks in. Lucy Letby was getting reckless and that's when she was stopped. Too late for grieving families and those poor babies but goodness knows how many more there would have been had she been allowed to persist.
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