I’ve not posted here yet, but I’ve been keeping up to date with the trial so far and reading everyone’s thoughts.
Until now I’ve been keeping an open mind.
Yesterday seems to have changed something for me. Until now, I’ve kind of dissociated when reading about this, I don’t know whether it’s the anonymity of the babies, but I really avoided thinking of the reality of those tiny precious most vulnerable babies. I so wanted it not to be true, because HOW can any human do something so utterly horrifying. it’s impossible to fathom. I would look at the pics of LL, and the people who’ve known her and expressed shock at the charges, and think no, there must be another explanation.
But yesterday it seems it will now become clear these deaths were deliberate. Those medical experts are credible, and the defence so far seems to have nothing.
I can get past the note, the FB searches. They can be explained either way I think. But I feel that as time goes on, it will start to require mental gymnastics to suggest someone was doing this and it wasn’t LL.
If LL done this (and if I was on the jury I’d be leaning that way today) then she can rot. But. I’m so disappointed in the hospital. Dr E said he reviewed 33 deaths?? A ten fold increase?? Moving LL from night to day shifts?? It’s not like monitoring someone who’s dipping the till, these were babies LIVES at risk. And babies DIED. If consultants and staff had suspicions since June 2015, why were things able to continue on that trajectory for a YEAR.
It’s simply awful and there are just no words.