Thank you so much everyone for all your messages.. shed more tears reading them
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I cry it out then the tears dry up then I start again. I just feel like I dont want to be here anymore I feel so lost without my mum and without my baby. I would never do anything to myself but I feel so hollow and so empty and so broken and I just wonder if life is just perpetual sadness and grief. I dont want to go back to where I was when I lost my mum and my last baby when my mental health was in the gutter and I was self harming but if feels like all the work I have done since then on myself to heal has all been undone in one day I'm not even sure if that makes sense. I truly appreciate your messages and I really mean that and I'm sorry for rambling. Xx
@Redheadsrock it may be because my account is on private I think why you cannot message I will try and reset back to normal xxx