John Stones #33 waiting for news on Bae’s hammy but in the meantime just get in our fannies

[lou_claire91]

I don’t even having a dining table but I would love one!!

At Xmas the other year RLF got us a cover with Dalmatians all over it with Christmas hats and sweaters from Dunelm so we switch between them two atm!

Spoiler: Ffs

Spoiler: Spoke too soon

Spoiler: Spoilerception because you probably don't want to know

Half manageable morning.

Hideous afternoon.

Don't know how to describe that I feel like crying and smashing tit up and running away to start a new life pretending to be someone else.

Crying on the bus like a mad woman.

Nothing happened. Nothing changed. Just me, my stupid brain held it together for about 6 hours and now is unleashed with a vengeance.

duck everything.

Headache like an axe to the temple from gritting my teeth to not cry.

Spoiler: Please don't worry

Feeling reckless but am in control. I know how to stay safe.

Sorry to be such crappy company lately. I love you all

I know it’s super hard but you should be so proud of yourself for opening up to us, it’s a step that you aren’t just keeping it bottled in, sending lots of hugs

 

[Starttheline]

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No, it's okay, I understand, I get why you're suggesting it.

Sounds mad but I do actually like my job. And there's some stuff coming up in a few weeks that I'm looking forward to.

And I feel like it wouldn't change anything. Dip away from the stress and pressure for a bit but just feel sad on my own, and purposeless, and then would be so anxious going back. Scared that if I stop trying I won't be able to start again.

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I think looking forward to exciting things is always a stabiliser. I once said to RLF that as long as I have a few things to look forward to every year, I'll be happy.

I think its a good idea to text your therapist if you feel the need to. That is what she's there for, no matter how big or small you feel it is.

 

[maccamacc]

I love him. And I really wouldn’t complain if he was my RLF not sure bae would be happy about that




View attachment 1611558 A threesome I didn’t know I wanted

What in holy duck are you talking about Bae would be hurt very hurt

He has a poorly hamstring too

 

[strawberrysunshine_x]

Spoiler: Ffs

Spoiler: Spoke too soon

Spoiler: Spoilerception because you probably don't want to know

Half manageable morning.

Hideous afternoon.

Don't know how to describe that I feel like crying and smashing tit up and running away to start a new life pretending to be someone else.

Crying on the bus like a mad woman.

Nothing happened. Nothing changed. Just me, my stupid brain held it together for about 6 hours and now is unleashed with a vengeance.

duck everything.

Headache like an axe to the temple from gritting my teeth to not cry.

Spoiler: Please don't worry

Feeling reckless but am in control. I know how to stay safe.

Sorry to be such crappy company lately. I love you all

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pls can you tell your work about this?

 

[Just Drive]

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You've made it through another day, you're more than halfway through the week now. You're winning x

I know he looks fucked here but imagine him touching your arm like this and looking at you like that.

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I just want him to touch me. Is that really too much to ask??

Spoiler: Ffs

Spoiler: Spoke too soon

Spoiler: Spoilerception because you probably don't want to know

Half manageable morning.

Hideous afternoon.

Don't know how to describe that I feel like crying and smashing tit up and running away to start a new life pretending to be someone else.

Crying on the bus like a mad woman.

Nothing happened. Nothing changed. Just me, my stupid brain held it together for about 6 hours and now is unleashed with a vengeance.

duck everything.

Headache like an axe to the temple from gritting my teeth to not cry.

Spoiler: Please don't worry

Feeling reckless but am in control. I know how to stay safe.

Sorry to be such crappy company lately. I love you all

Spoiler

You don’t need to apologize, ever. We’re here for you.

 

[sugarfairy23]

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Got her number and email address, she emailed this morning to say she's thinking of me and to reach out if I need to.

Thumb hovering over Reply but I just don't ever feel like it's bad enough to trouble her because I know I can carry it.

Can only echo what the others have said. I hope you are okay - I agree that your therapist wouldn’t have given you their number if they didn’t want you to call. You need to look out for the number one priority -yourself - and do whatever is going to help you in this moment

 

[LurkingAnnie]

At Xmas the other year RLF got us a cover with Dalmatians all over it with Christmas hats and sweaters from Dunelm so we switch between them two atm!


I know it’s super hard but you should be so proud of yourself for opening up to us, it’s a step that you aren’t just keeping it bottled in, sending lots of hugs

So cute. We do have a brekkie bar that we do eat at (sometimes), we’re not absolute tramps

love the idea of your little fam sitting round the table though.

Spoiler: Mac and cheese

is just going in the oven

 

[Gossgossgoss9888]

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pls can you tell your work about this?

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I can't, it would make things worse.

Emailed therapist. Already wanting to take it back.

It doesn't matter, I always cope. Just complaining as I do.

 

[LurkingAnnie]

@Gossgossgoss9888 you’ve done the right thing by emailing. Don’t even think about recalling it!!! You’re feeling anxious about asking for help, but these are the small steps we were talking about. Letting her know you’re not 100% is allowing yourself to open up a bit more.
love you x

 

[Violetroselily]

Cheers team

 

[cobette]

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I can't, it would make things worse.

Emailed therapist. Already wanting to take it back.

It doesn't matter, I always cope. Just complaining as I do.

Well done

Cheers team

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You didn't give us OOTD

 

[lou_claire91]

So cute. We do have a brekkie bar that we do eat at (sometimes), we’re not absolute tramps

love the idea of your little fam sitting round the table though.

Spoiler: Mac and cheese

is just going in the oven
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That looks sooo yummy
We never used to sit at the table, we used to just eat on our laps most but when we got new sofas and we had LO RLF said I had to start sitting at the table

 

[Gossgossgoss9888]

Cheers team

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Hope you have the loveliest time

 

[lou_claire91]

Cheers team

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Make sure you have a drink for all of us

 

[strawberrysunshine_x]

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I can't, it would make things worse.

Emailed therapist. Already wanting to take it back.

It doesn't matter, I always cope. Just complaining as I do.

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I don’t think of it as complaining. We are always here to listen. please don’t think you’re on your own . I’m glad you emailed your therapist. It’s what she is there for. It doesn’t make you weak to ask for help. You dont have to get through it alone honey xx

 

[LurkingAnnie]

Cheers team

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Oh well, it’d be rude not to join you

Wine Wednesday!!! Hope you have the best time

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I’d say this is the nicest one yet

That looks sooo yummy
We never used to sit at the table, we used to just eat on our laps most but when we got new sofas and we had LO RLF said I had to start sitting at the table

we said when we got our sofas we wouldn’t…. But we’re lazy and we do

 

[cobette]

RLF doesn't let me eat on the sofa so I do it when he isn't there.

He put the heating on, then went out He has now returned and is complaining it's too hot...

 

[lou_claire91]

Oh well, it’d be rude not to join you

Wine Wednesday!!! Hope you have the best time

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I’d say this is the nicest one yet
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we said when we got our sofas we wouldn’t…. But we’re lazy and we do

That looks soo good! 🥹

I still sneak food on there sometimes with a disapproving look from RLF at first but I let LO eat snacks on there under our blankets with me so he has kind of just dealt with it now

 

[Violetroselily]

Well done



You didn't give us OOTD

You can have a tit pic if you want?

 

[LurkingAnnie]

RLF doesn't let me eat on the sofa so I do it when he isn't there.

He put the heating on, then went out He has now returned and is complaining it's too hot...

I haven’t put the heating on tonight, yet. But say all cosy in my leggings, one of RLFs hoodies, blanket and slippers. It’s absolutely hammering down with rain, we can’t hear the telly over the rain

You can have a tit pic if you want?

Yes please!