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strawberrysunshine_x
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I’m feeling veryyyy deprived of him. Can someone share a nice video of him
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strawberrysunshine_x
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Ok honey. This is what I think from being an outsider looking in … maybe I’ve thought of scenarios you haven’t thought ofYou're all so lovely.
I know she doesn't work every day because of her kids.
So maybe she hasn't seen it yet. So I should probably recall it because she'll feel bad about missing it.
Or maybe she's seen it but doesn't think it needs a response. In which case she'll see me trying to recall it and will think I'm mad.
Feel like a dick for emailing anyway when other people have real problems and need her help.
Can't fucking concentrate or focus, it's doing my head in.
Working on a thing that has a connected document that about 5 people have contributed to. Made a couple of updates for the bit I'm doing. Boss reviewed it and came back with loads of comments on the other bits, now I have to dig into all the decisions that other people made weeks ago so I can explain them.
Trying to get stuff done but I feel so slow and stupid, like everything I do is wrong. Still stuck going into the office every day because of my trainee, who keeps asking if I'm okay because I'm quiet and it's exhausting to keep reassuring her.
Bumped into work crush on my way to hide a panic in the toilet. He asked if I was okay, I said yes but couldn't stop my face from doing this
Later he brought a cup of tea to my desk and asked again if everything was OK. I know you'll think I should have said something, not even for the crush but for talking to someone. But I couldn't.
Not really feeling very connected to my body at the minute. Bit dissociatey all of the time. Big blank nothingness interspersed with weepy moments. Bit scary.
Haven't heard from the doctors if I'm registered yet. I ticked the box on the form that I wanted them to let me know. Don't want to bug them but maybe I'll call and check if I haven't heard by next week. Don't know if I'll have the courage to make an appointment though. Don't have the courage for much.
On sofa, wrapped in blanket.
Cup of tea. Going to eat mac and cheese in a min. It's the first thing I've eaten all day, I'm sorry.
Then will go to bed after. Nothing worth staying up for.
I'm so sorry for being such a miseryguts.
1 therapist may be unwell that’s why she hasn’t got back to you. Or she isn’t working today. Maybe it’s gone in her spam box. Maybe she’s not seen it. But I’m sure she will get back to you, it’s her job . Don’t think anything bad about emailing. You did the right thing
2 your trainee. I know it’s really draining when someone keeps asking if you’re ok. But try looking at her perspective. If she is training and you are quiet she might be thinking you think she’s shit or not doing a good job. Just a thought
or maybe she just has noticed you are quiet & is concerned. We as humans always want to know why and what is up with people don’t we. Maybe just say oh I’m a quiet person and leave it at that 
Hope you’re ok. Don’t apologise. We are all here as a shoulder for you when you need. You’ll get through it I know you will. I don’t mean to go on but maybe you should take some sick days. Do you really think it won’t help xx
lou_claire91
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Bless him! Ah when we got our new fridge I made him a fort with the box!!Hahaha they like the randomest things. Mine loves cardboard boxes. The Xmas tree box is his fav
Starttheline
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Pup says its time for bed
Gossgossgoss9888
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Aah you put me on the spot!
I think maybe Gryffindor? Getting drunk and trying to adopt a dog feels quite Gryffindory.
Starttheline
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Hello yes please
Violetroselily
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Pls put me on ignore if I post this morning, I have too much to do at work as the markets collapse around us
mimimithis
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Exactly!Just like when he was ill and Soph looked after himhope you’re ok x
my mate had food poisoning last week, I offered to go over to see her and asked if she’d kiss meher fella, who is our boss, refused to let me in
I think it’s possibly one of the nicest things anyone can do and it makes me so emotional at the thought of someone doing it. She’s an amazing lady.
I need to figure out very quickly if it’s something I want to do, or whether I’ve got FOMO about having a kid and wondering what life would be like with just the two of us, for forever. It’s a weird situation
I wish I’d eaten less burgers - saying that, I’m going to a food festival this weekend
I would love to write Bae taking care of her eventually, but I fear he would be a bit use- and/or clueless. Could be endearing either way.I'm doing a little better, less nausea, less bone-tiredness. A little more focus, too. I still feel a little stupid about last night, tbh...
Your boss is a wise person...
That's so very understandable, feeling that way. I, for one, don't think you'd be ever considered an old mum, as you mentioned fearing earlier, and I'm sure you and your RLF would be great parents. And if it's not a human baby, I'm certain you'll be great dog parents, too. You have lots of love to give.
Gossgossgoss9888
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Afternoon my loves, any hammy updates?
Little bit better today.
Still feel a bit shit, but sense of perspective engaged.
Given the choice between forcing myself to be more productive and forcing myself to tell anyone there's a problem, I always choose the former.
Managed to get some actual work done this morning. Could be worse.
Still feel a bit shit, but sense of perspective engaged.
Given the choice between forcing myself to be more productive and forcing myself to tell anyone there's a problem, I always choose the former.
Managed to get some actual work done this morning. Could be worse.
Starttheline
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I am getting hourly "all users" emails and I do not have time for this
lou_claire91
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Violetroselily
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Would probably let him stick the toe in if it meant he put the willy in afterwards
Violetroselily
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try working for an investment bank
lou_claire91
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I did say to RLF are we going to do a whose getting wasted on what night and he said nah we can have a coupleA couple?
Jesus, I’ll be pissed before I leave Newcastle
… if I’m not up dancing along to the mini disco completed slaughtered on my birthday then something is going wrong! 
Don’t know if he’s smart enough for ravenclaw … thinking he seems more hufflepuff type!
sugarfairy23
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Aww thank you lovelyGood morning all 🤍
Sorry about your case lovey!
the whole book makes no sense but it’s like when you think it can’t get worse it does!!! It’s the fact she seemingly tries to date everyone, I love the fact bae seemingly wants to date a girl who is pregnant by another footballer so maybe factually she’s sound on parts! But poor Chilly, he just was used the whole way through!!!
and FWB Georgia is to start with quite similar but she’s a tiny bit more likeable, she’s not such whore
@sugarfairy23 I am all caught up on the sequel now and love it! Expect comments later
sending Bae hammy vibes to you all
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Your comments are always great.Sending my strongest hammy vibes to us all and hope you’re all having a good Wednesday
lou_claire91
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He doesn’t deserve you or your tits for that matter!Knob from my old work, we were messaging last week as he was in London but couldn't meet up. Happened to go for a coffee with someone else today and she was telling me how he and another girl are being very friendly and she thinks something is going on
strawberrysunshine_x
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He doesn’t deserve you or your boobsKnob from my old work, we were messaging last week as he was in London but couldn't meet up. Happened to go for a coffee with someone else today and she was telling me how he and another girl are being very friendly and she thinks something is going on
SnapHe doesn’t deserve you or your tits for that matter!
