Omfg. Worse than I remembered. She’s the OG VJB!Here's a few old blog excerpts that she wrote to Ben, knowing he and his gf Dawn read the blog. There was a lot more but I was losing the will to live trawling through old DS threads.
"Lots of love and passionate kisses (so passionate that you get warm and tingly down below and the chemistry burns up inside of you to the point of no return. So passionate that you need to have that person NOW. You need to be naked and entwined and writhing on a silk-covered bed. You need to be stroked and kissed and touched softly before devouring each other's bodies with your tongues and then throwing each other around with a force so hard it feels like you are going to break something. So passionate that you can't control yourself and when you orgasm it's so intense that it brings tears to your eyes. So passionate that you can't get enough and you realise you could happily be with that person every day for the rest of your life! So passionate that your whole body shakes with pleasure and you act out all your wildest fantasies. So passionate that it feels like nobody else will ever compare and so passionate that you could do it all again in half an hour and every day, 5 times a day forever more!). Sorry, got carried away thinking about somebody). See ya!!!! xxxxx"
"Ben - he's the one I want but can't have. He's gorgeous, talented, sexy, funny, nice, charming and sweet. He rocks my world but I don't rock his (although I would if he'd let me!). He's already got a beautiful girlfriend and I'm jealous to the highest degree! L oh sorry........... you didn't need an explanation of that one did you Ben?! Ha ha. "
I had to confide in someone (other than the 49 people I've already told) about my desperation in wanting to whisk Ben away to Barbados and marry him on the beach! I showed them the video of him and they told me to "hang in there" cos one day if and when he's single, he might give me a minute of his time. Ha ha.
Ben - even if I get married and move abroad; if you ever become single then come and find me cos I promise I'll drop everything and give you a lifetime of happiness... you're gorgeous! View attachment 2564010
As I sit here dreaming of cuddling Ben (and doing lots of other things to him), I know that I should just walk away from him too. Leave him to get on with his life and to be happy. So why God, why, do I have the insane urge to text him and tell him I need him, demand to know if has any feelings for me and beg him to come to Brentwood to live with me in my countryside house with two velvety bulldogs?