So here's a little story about how everything's been going since I started my injections.
I live quite far from the only clinic in my country, so I've been having my ultrasounds with obstetricians at my local hospital. Never the same one, mind you. The first doctor had zero bedside manner. He told me that "it would be very difficult retrieving eggs from me" so I spent about 5 hours that Friday crying. The next ultrasound was on the Monday after, and it was with the same doctor who I had my ultrasound with when I found out that I had miscarried last year. He was better, but yet again, nothing was really happening. There were two follicles of reasonable size in the left ovary but nothing to write about in the right one. Like the other doctor, he sent the info to the clinic, and they called me at 4 PM that day and told me to come in the following day. So I had to get someone to teach for me, then haul ass 5+ hours one way for an ultrasound where the specialist literally said: "If a miracle happens, we can harvest in a week."
That's when I accepted that nothing was going to happen this cycle. She didn't want to give up just yet, though, so she told me to keep injecting, go for an ultrasound on Friday (yesterday), and then come back to the clinic on Monday, where we would discuss my next steps (so another 5+ hour drive one way in less than a week. Yay). I would like to point out that she didn't even find my left ovary during this ultrasound (it's tricky, but it's always been found though).
I did what she told me, kept on injecting and went to the ultrasound yesterday (I was even thinking about not going cause I just thought, what's the use). I met yet another doctor, and truly the best one yet. Really nice and calm, with a very soothing voice and gentle mannerisms. The right ovary was still not really producing what we wanted, but he did notice that the left ovary had some follicles that were 15-24 mm in diameter. We talked a bit, and I didn't really expect anything. Through all of this, I've repeatedly been told that my endometrium is very healthy, which was a bright light in all of this.
Cue about 2,5 hours later. I get a call from the clinic, and the nurse tells me I'm scheduled for egg retrieval on Monday. I backtrack and tell her I'm only scheduled for an ultrasound and a talk, but she says: "No, the doctor really liked your latest results, and you're scheduled for egg retrieval at 10:30 on Monday morning and embryo transfer on either Wednesday or Thursday.
I'm still in shock. I know that there are a lot of steps and mountains I have to climb, and things can go wrong at any stage, but I genuinely thought that I wasn't producing any eggs and that things were over for me (I'm a 'the glass is not only empty but also in pieces on the floor kind of person).
I just gave myself the trigger shot 50 minutes ago (I have never been more nervous through this whole thing), and I will be waking up early tomorrow to take yet another long drive
But it's worth it