I'd say I'm very in-between at the moment. I'm very much an over thinker and I mourn my old life, I'm only early thirties now but I spent my entire 20's with a man who ended up being the most selfish, cruel, narcissistic man that I now feel like I've wasted what should have been the best years of my life. It was a very boring relationship also, never went on dates etc. I can't say I regret it as that relationship gave me my son who I adore and love more than anything but I spend a lot of time thinking about what could have been, how different my life might be now if I hadn't met him. I'd say that I have a comfortable life in that I've got a good job, earn good money, have lots of friends, a wonderful close family, but I've also very much turned in to an introvert whereas before, I was very much an extrovert. I feel like I need to start living again. I also can never imagine a day where I'd ever be able to get into a relationship again, even though I'd love to be with someone again, one day. I'm almost scared of men now yet I cry when I see cute couple videos I think many of us have our down days, where it seems like the world is against us but I do always try to see the good in what I've got compared to some. It's just very hard sometimes.