She gave herself away as being an addict when she said she had to “double the dose” the next day when she took pain medication. Normal people would never think of doubling the dose of a narcotic pain medication, that’s very scary. That sounded like someone who is used to taking more medication than her doctor prescribed.
Yeah, I was thinking this, too. I always doubled/tripled/quadrupled/higher my meds when I was addicted—like when you have no control over your impulses and give in easily it’s an easy thing to experiment with you just don’t think about the consequences. For me, it was getting that wonderful high (I still deeply miss it, I’ll admit), and for her it’s supposedly for her pain. I have doubts but I’ll stick with that excuse so as not to upset anyone who believes her.
She’s an addict through and through and she has zero self-restraint. I’m not entirely welcome to jab her for that (not saying you were, Citney) because I still do it with my gabapentin sometimes on hard days when my coping skills aren’t refined enough to save me. But the difference between us is that I know I’m
bleeping up, harming myself, and disrespecting my psych’s care for me and know I need to try harder, whereas she can openly admit to others that she just does it without any recognition that it’s dangerous…which indicates to me a severe lack of understanding of how bad that is.