You will get there. Just take it one day at a time. Life is so very hard and painful, and no one gets a free pass from the hurt. We all have our crutches to try and make it through but some of us are genetically programmed to addictions. It’s not your fault. Definitely 100% so don’t beat yourself up, okay? Btw, love love love your baby Ioan avatar.Thank you sweetheart, I really appreciate those words xxxx
I'm fine really. I have known for some time that it's a problem and unhealthy, BUT, I can always stop myself to be sober enough for work the next day, I don't immediately need a drink when I get home and occupy myself with errands as best as I can. But after that it's wine time. The thing that does upset me is that my hands shake now, even when I'm sober, it's a tell-tale sign and I try to avoid handing co-workers paperwork.
I'll get there one day, I'm just not ready yet. Too much tit to deal with. In the meantime you are correct. Momma JuneBug often tells me that I'm kind to a fault, which has consistently set me up as vulnerable to emotionally and physically abusive men. Heeeeence the substance abuse.