I agree with your husband, you should not just come off them. You need to medically weened off them - please do speak to your doctor.I'm also struggling, I have gained nearly a stone. However I am still working but walking to work everyday which is 20 minutes each way. I honestly don't think my eating has been all that bad but clearly it has. I've also been drinking a lot more than usual and drinking wine. I've struggling with an ED in the past which has led me to have an up and down relationship with food where have been on on both ends of the scale. Binge etc. I'm now at my heaviest I have been in years and my mood is very low. I've decided to come of my pill and to stop taking my antidepressants to see if that helps as so much of my mood is focused on my weight but sometimes I cant find motivation because of my mood, its a bad cycle. There's not a day or hour goes by that I don't obsess, I've gone 6 months without dieting and maintained a good weight so scared to fall back into a diet trap. But I feel I need to track to lose. Sorry for the rant but I'm sick of my self! My husband said I should go to drs and talk about coming of my anti depressants - but I've just stopped myself? I'm 5"7 and 13.8 this morning usually around 12.7 and was 10 st when I developed my ED.
I am glad I have maintained my current lockdown weight (all be it 3 stone heavier than when I met my husband). I turn 30 on friday so I am keen to enjoy it but mindfully and then as of Monday I need to up my exercsice and really keep and eye on things. I don't think I will be back at work full time until september at least and I would like to spend this time working on myself. I feel I have wasted the last 11 weeks but at lease I haven't gained!
I have a history of undiagnosed ED's and want to stay away from diets. I just want to eat better and move more. I cannot wait for my gym to open but for now I need to walk everyday, and keep and eye on calories.