Stress and exhaustion makes you lose your ability to think straight, that’s for sure. Are you going to contact him again at all? It’s completely ok that you’re not coming to terms with it yet. Don’t feel like you have to anytime soon, you’re human and it’s going to take time.I'm not doing well at all to be honest. I've been feeling really unwell, I think it's just the stress and exhaustion catching up with me. I was really shaky on my way home last night. Dreading work today and dreading the weekend again. Still haven't heard from him, almost two weeks now with nothing. I'm really struggling to come to terms with this.