Ughhh…
So my anxiety is really bad because I’m looking forward to something this weekend so I’ve been body checking and my anxiety has gone to my genital area again…since late 2019 I’ve had on off pain marked in blue on the attached picture, it started when I was having my bowel cancer fears and checking for piles and fissures, so I was bent awkwardly over a mirror. Over time I noticed a pattern of it hurting when I was hungry, after I’d been squatting over a mirror, and sometimes just before my period then it would go when I started. Recently it’s been after sitting in the office chairs for two days. Obvs with everything I’m going through right now my mind starts saying what if? Pelvic pain is a sign of ovarian cancer
So I hadn’t worried about my vag for a while, then last week my period came a few days later than it has been, so I was worried about that, then it finished Sunday, with some minor spotting Monday, and nothing yesterday. I’ve got it into my head that I’ve got lumps in my vag high up, I can feel ridges etc, so last night I was checking loads by putting a finger up there, and today I have brown/reddy discharge
I’m always terrified I’m spotting between periods so I only wear white pants so I can constantly be checking, I don’t normally spot for this long after a period (although saying that a few cycles ago I had a tiny bit of spotting like 2 days after the end), and now I’m off the implant I can’t even blame spotting on that so it must be cancer
tempted to bring my smear forward from next jan to now. Also I started my periods at 10 which is quite young which raises your risk for gynae cancers
Sometimes I think of the 2 false positive pregnancy tests I had years ago, because it can be a sign of cancer
maybe I’ve just ignored the signs for too long now it’s too late