I have been with my partner now for seven years. Around five years of that is trying for a baby. Started off just if it happens, it happens to forcing ourselves to have sex every other day. I say forced because we went hard in trying. I tracked my cycle for three years and just really really tried to get pregnant. 2021, I fell pregnant but it ended up being an early miscarriage. It was heartbreaking, all that stress, all that hope, the shock that we can actually get a positive test to it being taken away from us. I am resilient so I tried the next month, nothing. Tried month after that and another positive test. This time it was a chemical and after that I had around six more chemicals. When 2022 came, I decided to stop trying. Too much stress and effort and chemical pregnancy can happen at 4-5 weeks roughly so the different times when they happened was stressful. Especially when I was working the days, I’d be having them. Life is life.
2022 I had all the tests and scans and they came back with I had a cyst on my left ovary. It wasn’t hindering me getting pregnant but it was there. I’m due another scan in a month or so to see if it has gone, if not keyhole surgery most likely. I was given the all clear which was relieving but there were no tests for them to do and if I were to try again and couldn’t get pregnant then there wouldn’t be much more they can do. I haven’t tried again since. I haven’t even had sex lol. I’m so tired and exhausted of the rollercoaster of emotions from the last three years.
I do still want children one day but in the last few months of coming to terms of that last few years, I’ve come to realise that having children isn’t my top priority anymore. Especially with the world the way it is, my own personal goals, issues all that. I am someone who has always wanted children so badly. I love my friends children like my own and I would do absolutely anything for any child. But now, I don’t want them as much and in a way, I am grateful that my dark times have lead me to so much more lighter times. Clear minded, happy, content. I have a puppy now
and I love love being free to take him for a walk and if he’s naughty he goes in his cage 🥲 can’t do that with a kid
I have a new job, my partner and I are just as in love as we were seven years ago and we are both happy.
You see I am on an infertility journey. God knows how many times we had sex over the five years of trying and still had no baby.
Lauryn is infertile and has sex ONCE and is considered someone who is on an infertility journey. And again, she’s pregnant again. Who was she trying with if it’s difficult for her? Is she that lucky?
She’s a liar and if anyone who is on here or comes on here and think her shit talk about infertility bracelets and how it worked for her is real then please know it’s not. Please don’t buy her bracelets, don’t click on any of her links. Report all posts and stories of those bracelets. Report the company, let’s see if it’s a legit company. Who owns it?
Sorry for longwinded post, I thought I’d share my infertility journey because I have actually gone through the struggles and if anyone can relate to me or anyone else going through the same (not Lauryn) just know, you’re not alone and you just have to keep going. Don’t put too much pressure. And it’s okay to give up, you’re not a failure. Maybe it’s a sign that it’s not your time yet and you have more of YOUR life to live before you put someone else first
P.S to lighten up I’m going to be creating some new images of our Lozza and hope they pop up on google images again hehehe ……