I know it's a bit off topic and a total rant but here we go.Yea go for it x
I feel like I'm getting heavily persuaded by my parents to go teetotal. I am not a massive drinker so it's not like it's a problematic thing with me. I do get hit pretty bad with stomach issues with drinking so I usually need to cap my limits a lot lower than most. I'm always the least drunk person in the group. I've learned my lesson not to try and keep up with my friends. I need to drink about at half the speed and amount they do.
Anyway, I feel like any time I'm going out, an obstacle is put in my way to stop me drinking. I'm the only one with a car in the house. If I mention I'm going out, an excuse is always made to talk me out of drinking. Something that requires me to be up early and driving the following morning so I need to be sober.
It's strange because it never used to be like this. I've been driving for 3 years. My dad used to own a car but doesn't anymore. It's only across the past few months. I used to go out a lot, staying out but I'd always let them know that and that was all good. I don't drink anywhere near as much as I did when I was younger but it's more of a problem now. Yet now when I am going out it's always causes an issue. Never used to be any problems when I used to stumble back home at 8/9am. I don't understand it because I'm older now. I'm not a little kid.
They hate it when I don't go out (I find it awkward being the only one teetotal, I struggle with anxiety at the best of times) and when I go out it causes no end to the problems. I get sm phone calls asking me when I'm going to be home. Yet when I address this, I'm told that they have no problems and it's all made out to be in my head.
I will admit. It takes absolutely hours to get a taxi. Sometimes it's a three hours wait to get a taxi home and it costs a lot of money. Yet when I mentioned that I get made out like I'm sneaking around being evasive and lying. I feel its like I'm totally getting gaslit. Anytime I address this they tell me they have no issue with me going out and drinking. Yet the day after I'm out they are always in a mood with me.
I honestly like I get treated more of a child now than when I was younger. I don't understand.
Like I can see where it's coming from, since I wait for hours for expensive taxis and it really does duck my stomach up but I feel like I'm getting backed into a corner