Thanks to all these Instagram knobs there is a tremendous pressure to make a song and a dance over a first birthday. I honestly long for the days where we all just had jelly and ice cream, a paper cone hat and played pass the parcel with your dad's smelly sock rolled up inside as a joke prize for the winner
(please don't say this was only my family haha)
You sound like a responsible, caring, awesome mother and wife the things Fopperbollox could only DREAM OF... trust me now, better times WILL come. When I was a young 18yr old mother with absolutely nothing (we were on patio furniture because we couldn't afford anything else) I could only afford a little gift for my oldest son's 1st birthday. I totally understand how you feel (he's 20 now!) My mother bought him a cake and we took him out for a little supper. It broke me at the time but It doesn't stop me looking back at the photos with so much love and happy memories. My parents would have paid for/given me anything but I was too proud and stubborn. You'll be happy no matter what trust me
sorry for the essay but your post touched my swinging brick of a heart