Tonight’s stories were amazing. Luella was so engaged with the camera and looking at herself and interested and curious. She’s clearly a very bright and switched on little girl, who just needs a bit more connection and support to interact with the world and people around her. It’s such a shame that Erin hasn’t been able to focus on that at all - though I understand what she was saying about being focussed on mobility and her priorities having to change as she understood more, that makes sense and is probably something I’d do if I’m honest.
But complaining about Luella not sitting in a high chair and how difficult it is to feed her just reminded me how out of touch she really is. Luella’s surgery and care and treatment and all that aside, which I agree is easy for some of us to make judgements about from a privileged place of distance, I think Erin would be snark-worthy if she had her two perfectly healthy children and epilepsy wasn’t a factor. There is not a single child on earth who could live up to Erin’s expectations of what a child should be like or what she feels she’s entitled to. I have two kids either side of Luella in age - I fed one of them dinner in the bath tonight because they were so exhausted after daycare that they couldn’t calm down until I put them in the tub (their happy place) and the other one threw the first two dinners I made directly into the bin (partly down the back of the couch) and then hopped between the table, a stool at the kitchen bench, the couch, the floor and then the bath with the youngest, to eat the cheese sandwich they finally agreed to for dinner. Watching Luella eat chicken and veggies and fruit, in the same position for an extended period while smiling and interacting affectionately with Erin, was beautiful and beyond my wildest dreams of what a dinner time with little kids could be like.
She has so many things to be unhappy about, I do not begrudge her feeling overwhelmed and heartbroken and stressed and all the things she must feel about epilepsy and it’s affect on her beautiful daughter. But she also is incredibly unhappy and complains about so, so many things that are just part and parcel of having children. Yes, we all bemoan these aspects of our kids, but she seems to take it as a personal affront, that she never expected there might be challenges, that it’s all about epilepsy and Luella and how she’s basically a first time mum to Tom. That’s what makes her snark worthy to me - that she would have a page on this site even if epilepsy wasn’t playing a role in any of this and she was just any other beige mumfluencer.
for Harpers birthday yesterday 
Poor Luella
