firstly - Denise is a new mam, looks to be doing a great job (even if she wasnt I wouldnt comment but she is) looks to be flying herself which is brilliant. Its brilliant she's got herself up and out and doing well, not all new mams are able to - being a new mam is hard and everyone should be supported.
Her Saloons are brilliant - I loved the atmosphere in the old one. And the new one was a treat a bit of time for myself. I bought all her products - told all my friends who were having trouble conceiving to follow her, visit the saloon etc.
I had trouble conceiving - took it very hard ( as most do) . But we got lucky - and trust me had a true miracle baby. I say miracle and lucky because there is no reason why I deserved my baby more than any other woman. Its luck - its called a miracle because there is no rhyme or reason.
1. I unfollowed walked away like I recommend anyone does when looking at something hurting them. The world can be a sh*tty horrible place - and bad things happen to good people. The idea that this can be controlled by manifesting is so toxic, no one deserves badness. I am all for manifesting a new job/house etc things that you can control work hard for make a plan and make happen. But surely anyone whose gone through fertility issues knows the hardest part is the lack of control - me personally I would have done anything to conceive but it wasn't within my powers, and that s what i struggled with most. You just have to keep trooping with blind faith !
2. So all was ok - not for me unfollow find a new hairdresser etc. Then someone I know and that I had recommended Denise to was very upset by her addressing the message she received, and so like a car crash I watched. I was raging - I will admit. It was the biggest gaslight I have ever witnessed.
The 2nd hardest part of infertility for me - was feeling like I was a bad person, separated from friends etc. who were conceiving, an outsider not part of the club. But anytime someone announced a pregnancy yeah you do feel sad and question fairness etc - - - - so to see this being used ( and by someone who is supposed to be a supporter of women struggling - against women who said they had an issue with manifesting was horrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrribbble.
To be very clear anyone who needs to hear this - no its not you ( you are trying your best) - its not the case that you are a horrible person whose just jealous of Denise and her baby - and that's the reason why you are uncomfortable/sad with the idea of Manifesting a baby. ITS NOT YOU - manifesting a baby is toxic.
I am blessed and so truly lucky and I know it, I'm jealous of no ones child - sure why would I hahaha my childs the best in the wolrd lol and the manifesting hurt me - it brought back the pain. And I have my child.
I worked so hard, I cried so much - but the sh*tty thing is none of it mattered it was still just luck ( this sounds like a place of privilege so bare with me I had a 1lb baby in the end lol so its not been easy, But Im still one of the lucky ones - lucky to have him, lucky he survived, lucky he thrived, lucky I am well enough in myself to know - that its not jealousy to believe that you cant manifest away bad things that happen to good people. And its not jealousy to know that its toxic and cruel to perpetuate this idea - to a group of women who follow you for fertility
Im unsubscribing again - unfollowing and hiding from this conversation as I've enough on my plate.
I just hope that anyone struggling knows they aren't alone, there is a community of women to support them - and even when all faith and hope is gone miracles do happen.
I haven't had as many rounds as you but currently going through it too and I'm sending you so much love. Your so strong 
