also i’m only just skimming through but sending you a lot of love
@Belle123 - everyone else has already been very eloquent and i can only second their words on what a lovely person you are! why do these men continually throw away amazing women?
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I third this!
@Belle123 you have been such a source of sanity for me. I’m so glad you are so grounded, though I know there’ll also be hurt in there too. do you remember our chat about instincts and how we know when somethings wrong because of behavioural inconsistencies or changes? You’re absolutely right as far as I’m concerned to have said and hard lined how you have. His behaviour caused this, not you.
I remember a therapist once telling me that men will do anything to not feel guilt or bad or uncomfortable about something because they’re so used to male privilege. And I see it in nearly every man I know, they want easy lives but it’s so internalised what that means that they make things
crappy for everyone. Just because being honest makes them uncomfortable.
Honestly, reading through what you’re all saying today, I feel really conflicted. My ex IS showing up for me still. He’s checked in with me everyday this week. He’s been really sweet over a work conflict between our two companies as his boss wants something very different to mine and we’re the bloody go betweens. He’s made it so clear that he doesn’t want it to be something that affects us personally, and he’s asked to see me this weekend to do something he promised me months ago. But I’m also conscious that maybe because he can’t quite let go, I’m clinging on to a hope that I shouldn’t.
I’m beginning to think the best thing we can all do is try but know there’s no guarantees. If we go in with open eyes and not just hearts, at least we won’t be surprised. We can take a deep breath and go ok, so let’s have a few tears, a deep breath and remember it’s not personal.