i think she is very confused and lost, and that no matter how she tries to dive into her "deep" side of spirituality, she is floundering
she can't seem to envision her life and career path properly and in a big picture view? she instead breaks aspects of her identity into chunks, to try appeal to different segments but she half asses it e.g. gaming (well, the sims lol), painting
but because she's desperately trying to clutch onto earning money through her online persona, she's not authentic. she just goes back and forth in throwing effort in for a bit, gets discouraged when it doesn't pull bank and gives up. she has no real drive or passion so she gets nowhere. so she goes back to the fashion and repeated makeup vids bc that's what her demographic engage with
for gods sake it's just time she retires this big online game of hers tbh and seeks a different path
she will get eaten alive on twitch, and as for podcasts, that will just be an extended version of her ig rambles lol
she can't seem to envision her life and career path properly and in a big picture view? she instead breaks aspects of her identity into chunks, to try appeal to different segments but she half asses it e.g. gaming (well, the sims lol), painting
but because she's desperately trying to clutch onto earning money through her online persona, she's not authentic. she just goes back and forth in throwing effort in for a bit, gets discouraged when it doesn't pull bank and gives up. she has no real drive or passion so she gets nowhere. so she goes back to the fashion and repeated makeup vids bc that's what her demographic engage with
for gods sake it's just time she retires this big online game of hers tbh and seeks a different path
she will get eaten alive on twitch, and as for podcasts, that will just be an extended version of her ig rambles lol
dying. Lauren Curtis Part Two.
Don’t get me wrong though, I do inevitably feel sorry for the poor girl in a sense as she clearly hasn’t been living a genuinely happy life since childhood I would imagine. Sure, she’s gotten to have some cool opportunities and make easy money but how much is that really worth if you aren’t happy deep down? And any memories she’s made over the past decade or so, she’s managed to sever ties with every single person she had experiences with apart from her family. That must be really sad. It’s like she’s lived a life, but a fake one? And is only now seemed to have some sort of realisation that she is getting older and will need to make some sort of change as it’s clearly taken a massive toll on her. I imagine living a fake life for so long especially online, would be exhausting and emotionally draining whether that’s it’s been your own fault or not. Do you guys believe this sort of epiphany or ‘spiritual awakening’ (eye roll) that she’s had is real and is finally going to invoke a substantial change in her? For her sake, I want to believe it’s real but I personally can’t help but feel like we’ve already seen her have these supposed ‘awakenings’ and ‘realisations’ of who she is and what she’s going to be, time and time again over the years. Will this one truly be it? Are we going to see her move back to Australia, live the ‘slow’ life she so craves on a farm with ‘hundreds’ of rescued dogs *cough* and not lock them all into a cramped dark bathroom each night *cough* , or will we see her return to her constant morphing and various personalities trying to fit in with every influencer and continue to making her same repetitive blurry one sided makeup routine video and throwing around mental health quotes and fast fashion affiliate links on Instagram? I’m very interested to see. Can’t wait!