Thank you so much for your kind reply and I’m so sorry you’ve suffered all of this worry too.
My eldest is 18 and the abuse he’s given me has been dreadful. He was great the first few months just got on with it and accepted it but the last 2 he’s been awful and hard to live with. The stress he has inflicted on me and my husband has worsened my CFS most definitely. He is a tad hot headed but a good caring bou, but lockdown has affected him and he’s been difficult to live with. We’ve done our best to keep our kids happy, family time, takeaways, nice treats etc...
Shielding ends tomorrow and today he had his friend knock the door, they stood less than a metre apart and he couldn’t understand why we were annoyed he did that so he blew up and he was awful to us. So we know he won’t respect the 1-2 meters rule once shielding ends tomorrow. I’ve been in floods of tears again today because I can’t handle his outbursts anymore.
My children have always been my world, my reason to keep trying to get better. I suffered an assault 8 years ago which led to ptsd, anxiety and then the CFS and other health issues began. So all of this conflict has been a huge trigger for me. I’m the least confrontational person, I hate arguments and stress. I feel so stressed out and all I want is for him to understand we have to social distance when lockdowns over and I’m not being ‘petty’ or ‘OTT’. Just stay 1-2 metres but he refuses and arguments start.
Right now at times I hate to say it but I’ve wished I lived alone because I’ve zero chance of healing here after the year we’ve had. We’ve explained it’s far better to be kind and accept the situation, lift each others spirits than be angry at us, we need to be safe, but he doesn’t get it. He will apologise but 2 days later he’s moaning again and he starts an argument about pushing the boundaries.
God being a mum is so hard when you have chronic illness
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Sorry I offloaded all of that. I’m glad things are getting back to normal and slowly you’re feeling less worried, that’s reassuring to hear xxxx
Yes it’s 16th August in Wales.