Chikara Transformations (ilona)

[PiefaceG]

Hey Tattlers. I've just come across this thread and have many thoughts.

I've been a subscriber to Ilonas channel for years. From when she was living in London with her ex, who wasn't even her husband at that point.

I really liked her, and she was the first gym chick I followed. I'm now a gym chick myself and have fallen in love with powerlifting and probably have Ilona to thank for that.

I've always noticed something a bit off about her, not enough to stop me from enjoying her content, but she was always a bit right wing for me, a bit "pull yourself up by your bootstraps" when it comes to money and life, etc. I realised she had an addiction during lockdown. She got REALLY pissy when she didn't have the right gym equipment and even moved to Bulgaria because she couldn't handle the UK lockdowns keeping her away from the gym. She also had a god complex, thinking that being in shape meant she was impervious to covid. (As I mentioned I'm also a gym girl, and I was hospitalised with covid last month. Muscles won't save you, it's just genetics).

The other thing is she has a lot of internalised misogyny that she needs to work through. I think this ties into her extreme physique. She started out as a bikini model (and won medals and looked great!) but then I think her addiction to getting big and body dysmorphia took over. She just kept training, it seemed like with no competition goal in mind. Bodybuilders are always dialled into their chosen categories and will train some muscle groups really hard, but go light on others to make sure they fit their criteria. I'm not sure what the plan was after getting too big for bikini, because she wasn't a good fit for wellness at all, and she apparently didn't want to get any bigger, even though that was the only option left if she wanted to compete. She's now got herself stuck where she was using more gear and gaining more muscle than I believe she actually wanted to. It's a shame because this didn't need to happen. She could've stopped growing and stayed competitive in a different category.

Now I think she's in a state of cognitive dissonance where she needs to constantly justify her physique and continued use of steroids to herself. She said she's asked her male friends if she looks "too masculine" and they said no, you look athletic. Which is a lie. I won't use the word masculine because muscles don't have a gender, but she 100% looks like a bodybuilder who has used steroids for many years, clearly beyond what is naturally achievable. It's concerning that she can't see that for herself.

Don't even get me started on the men Hopefully she's learned some lessons there, and I'm glad she broke up with them at least.

 

[PiefaceG]

Yeah she's definitely always mentioned testosterone as a joke, as if all the other stuff she's used is much better

Yeah it's a strange hill to die on considering everything else she uses. It's probably an attempt to hold on to her femininity somewhat or something akin to a frequent cocaine user going "at least I don't do smack".

 

[HelloKittyLagerfeld]

No one else I know has any clue who Chikara is so I just had to come here to make what is most likely a petty complaint:
I understand that training for a show is exhausting and takes a lot out of her, but when she starts most videos with I am filming this because I cannot be assed to do anything else, or don't care, or don't want to make any effort it gets infuriating. You don't have to tell your audience every video how little you want to do your job. No one is begging for a video. It just really rubs me the wrong way that she says I am going to put in the most minimal effort in order to financially support my life.

Also......... with regards to her reactions when it comes to the current genocide... I think it is such a privileged take to say I don't care about politics because they are fake.... literally 1000s of children have been murdered and she can just ignore it cause she "doesn't care". Must be nice to be so self obsessed. I understand not discussing it but take the 1 minute to edit it out. If Anna starts talking about the conflict and Ilona doesn't want to discuss it, edit it out. But as she says she cannot be assed to even do the bare minimum. I am not asking for her opinion on the subject, in fact I don't want to hear it, but it is so entitled and privileged to say that the situation is something that can be ignored.

 

[Hrosixx]

Oh my god I’m so happy I found this thread and can vent here ilona annoys the living shit put me. I’m originally from bulgaria, but no longer live there….and I find it so bizarre how she keeps saying people in Bulgaria don’t have GPs, they don’t have healthcare, you can’t order stuff online if you are in Bulgaria and other weird shit…
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And another thing I find weird is how she’s getting all those fillers and Botox almost every second vlog and she keeps saying “ohh I haven’t had my lips done in 10 months” and “ I only get fillers to compensate for the lost volume and make them how they used to be” girl noooo.. it’s okay to get procedures but don’t be that person Jesus.
for a video of her 3 years ago vs now

 

[HairyBerries]

I totally get giving people second chances but I'm surprised she chose a guy who not only called her a ~whore~ and not to mention ~worse!~ than a whore to be her love & he also sounds mentally unwell asking about her previous relationships and the sex life, what does it matter now? It screams massive insecurity on both their parts,


just wow.

 

[Catinabox]

Jooooo boy her lasted video reacting to April is just full of her being snarky and rude, and a lot of comments on how her diet is healthier, and how she's not ashamed of her body and face, for someone unashamed of either she sure mentions it a lot. Seems to me she really does struggle and she's trying to convince herself as well as us that she is happy right now

 

[Catinabox]

It's sad that she's dedicated so much of her time and life, damaging her body, relapsing with her ed a couple times and she still hasn't achieved the pro card she desperately wants. I genuinely feel for her it has to be mentally taxing

 

[Catinabox]

Hi Everyone - I'm new to the thread!

Came to her channel via Tammy Lemon. I'm another one who watched for several months thinking she was trans - the PEDs have really buggered up her voice!

I think she's in no position to criticise other people's eating and excersing given that she is so extreme herself. In one video she's sipping on a birthday cake flavoured energy drink while criticising other people's unhealthy habits. She's admitted that her lifestyle has caused her periods to stop, she's lost the fluid in her joints and the fat pad under her feet. She tried to make out that shaving her beard twice a week is normal for a woman.

I've also noticed that she seems quite out of breath a lot of the time just talking or getting up to pet the dog. Quite concerning.

Yes her breathlessness is scary, I worry for her, she seems to go further each time, doing more damage each show she trains for. I agree it's an equally unhealthy lifestyle and she shouldn't comment on others for this reason. I really used to like her, I wouldn't say I dislike her it's more I've just lost interest

 

[Corona]

Also lol that she seems to think she looks younger than she is, she's delusional she easily looks 45

 

[Rosie34567-2]

Bahahahah so... It turns out I was not overreacting about the off-leash dog walking. I just clicked on one of her recent videos and she said her dog "ran away" and it took her over an hour and a half to find her. It turns out the dog was on a LEDGE and she had to climb to get her and it was really dangerous, and the dog was stuck up there.

I'm not laughing because it's funny (it's infuriating), I'm laughing because it was totally predictable and avoidable.

And what pisses me off is that she thinks "the moral of the story is that I need a GPS tracker." WRONG. The moral of the story is PUT YOUR DOG ON A LEASH. And she even pats herself on the back being like "If it wasn't for me being so fit and healthy, then I wouldn't be able to find her." Again, WRONG. If it wasn't for you being irresponsible, then this situation would not have happened! And she even says her dog is a "hunter" so it's hard to do recall ....which is exactly the type of dog that shouldn't be off-leash, and could even get triggered by a small child one day.

 

[Hrosixx]

I don’t know if I can post this here as it’s behind her paywall. I’m a member on her channel and she posted an update in her community tab.

basically her and the boyfriend broke up.
she said he was always asking her about her exes and what she did with them sexually, he was struggling with the fact that she was not a virgin or inexperienced and last night he told her that she was a wh*re and worse than a prostitute because she has had couple of ONS back in the day.

 

[Rosie34567-2]

Wow I'm surprised to see there IS actually a thread about her.

Yeah I just really needed to rant about her too, so I was like....well, someone has to start the thread! It might as well be me!

just talking in a hypothetical sense and it seems she wants children very badly at this stage too, lol.

Yup. She's full of contradictions. On a similar note, I kind of get the vibe that she's confused about her identity.

She literally spends all day everyday trying to look as masculine as possible, and then gets insecure and overcompensates by putting on a ton of makeup to look more feminine. And if she truly does want to get pregnant, then why is she intentionally destroying her body to the point where she claims she no longer gets her period? I just feel like there's A LOT to unpack there...

how Eugenia was still living at home at age 28. Maybe you, ILONA, do not have a strong relationship with your parents but some people may not have a choice. I have been looking after my deathly ill father for the past three years in my early 30's and it's honestly matured me a lot more and taught me about the most important thing in/about life.

PREACH. An adult child living with their parents doesn't automatically make them lazy or weird. There are many reasons why someone could be living at home. And in some cultures, it's considered normal.

Also the whole "omg you're still living at home?" judgmental mentality is such a privileged outdated mentality. In previous generations it was actually feasible for people to move out at a younger age because the economy and job market was totally different. Now, inflation has gone up but wages haven't, so it's way harder for people to do that without getting roommates, paying off student loans first, etc.
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It was also a big ICK for me when a long time ago she bought her partner into two reactions

Yes! Also her recent drama with her boyfriend about how she has pets and he doesn't really like pets...um...then why are you dating someone who doesn't like pets then, Ilona???

It also seems quite toxic that she would bring an argument up to thousands of strangers on the internet. If my partner discussed private things on the internet like that, I'd be pissed.

 

[Rosie34567-2]

The more I watch her channel, the more I’m convinced bodybuilding in general is just a massive eating disorder/mental health issue (in my opinion).

I have a hard time supporting the “sport,” because I feel as if I’d be cheering on an addict for their “dedication” to their own self-destruction.

 

[Rosie34567-2]

Her reaction videos are the laziest form of content ever. She barely even says anything, and half the time she's just obnoxiously slurping on a coffee.

There's also something a little bit gross about how she'll bank off of other people's content...and then have the audacity to shame them. Like at least those "fat" people MADE content, whereas she's just sitting there filming herself watching other people's content.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not defending those people at all (they are definitely problematic in their own ways and deserve criticism). However, Ilona also needs to get off her high horse because it's literally her JOB to be athletic, whereas the people she's commenting on often have lives outside of gym.

 

[Rosie34567-2]

Finally a thread! I was considering doing one a while back but wasn't sure how much interest there'd be on here. I do mostly like Ilona but there's a few things...

1. The men. I have absolutely no idea why Ilona feels the need to share the minutiae of her dating life to the entire internet. If she didn't say anything, then I wouldn't have an opinion about it. Her ex-husband seemed like a misogynistic tosser. I remember him walking up to her in the kitchen on one vlog and he just started rubbing her tit. She looked really uncomfortable then she left it in the footage for the world to see. There was New Years Eve dude. She was really excited about him then she dumped him because he stood her up or something? Then there was Mr Allergic to Dogs. They couldn't have been together more than about three months and she seemed ready to marry the guy. Now she's complaining about the fact that they only ended up going on three dates? I could see that break up coming a mile off. I think she's going for guys that want a more traditional home/wifey set up because she's kidded herself into thinking that she wants the traditional nuclear family. I think the issue is that she's not traditional in the slightest and (good for her) can't be controlled by every dudebro that she dates.

2. The dogs. I love that she loves her dogs so much, but she's not exactly responsible with them. Always walking them off lead, always feeding them human food. Screaming at them during filming because they're barking. I would hate to live in that apartment complex with her.

3. Video quality. She's always putting stuff out that needs to be edited properly or has sound issues or something. I don't care if you have 'prep brain', this is your job.

4. Reaction content. Don't get me wrong, I'd watch Ilona react to April all day long, but she has a habit of being mean and unconstructive. She can't see very far beyond her own experience and is constantly talking about things that she knows fuck all about. She was saying that she didn't know anything about running in one of the April reacts, but then still went on to talk about how running training should go. Her reactions to Eugenia I think are just outright unethical.

5. Bodybuilding. I hope she does get a pro card in the physique category. She does work hard and she deserves it. I like how she's open about the PEDs and doesn't sugar coat the effort that's needed. I can guarantee that if she was still with Mr Allergic to Dogs she wouldn't have competed again.

I 100% agree with your comment! Also, welcome to the thread haha!

The walking her dogs off-leash thing annoys me so much, because it's dangerous for both the dogs and humans. In some places, idk where she lives, it may even be illegal in non-dog parks. There's also something really entitled about that...it's almost like when people let their children run around in public, and everyone else just has to "deal with it."

The boyfriends thing. Sigh. I agree, idk why she keeps bringing it up and also the men are seem like jerks. I think she's deeply insecure, so she overcompensates by saying "my boyfriend" every other sentence.

I hate the low effort editing, drinking/eating while filming, etc. Also...she doesn't really say much! Sometimes during a "critique" video, it'll just be her sitting in a chair drinking coffee while watching someone else's youtube vid LOL. The dead air time can get awkward sometimes during those review videos like...um, are you actually going to comment on something, Ilona?!

 

[Hrosixx]

She’s got a new man again this time he’s married…. She met him when she used to live on the seaside in Bulgaria 2 years ago and he kept messaging her but she never did anything with him because he was married, apparently they’ve been in a relationship for 2 weeks now and he’s getting a divorce soon…. And in her recent video she literally said she’s planning to get pregnant this year

 

[Libertine1975]

Randomly came across this YouTuber earlier this week and was so confused, I thought she was a man then saw she posted something about her fertility.

Her voice is so deep, is this likely to be due to the PED she takes (presumably steroids). Her videos are strange, I don't dislike the commentary but the sound cuts out at times and in one recent video she spent about half of it sorting her pets out.

 

[Hrosixx]

I can see you were discussing her “performance enhancers”. I honestly think she believes that she is using a small amount because she is in Bulgaria. This is an epidemic there, most guys I think there was every third guy aged 18-35 who goes to the gym takes some sort of steroids or other drugs. Even normal looking guys.

it’s very easy to buy them there.. there are literally 5-10 very popular online stores for that kind of stuff (obviously selling those things is illegal).

she’s Probably comparing herself to the people she meets in the gym.

I also watched her video from yesterday, she’s so obsessed with men and having a boyfriend.
Honestly in Bulgaria the standard for men is very muscular and for women is SKINNY (not slim, skinny-think early 2000s) and short. I think she doesn’t have much luck on tinder because men don’t often see women like her and perceive her as more of like a fetish if that makes sense. Unfortunately women from Western Europe are perceived as “easy” women so all of the weirdos automatically try to flirt with them, just to get sex

 

[Nutsandseeds]

She says her dog behaved aggressively towards another dog to the extent that the neighbour thought it should wear a muzzle. I wonder if they haven't been socialised enough? Maybe she doesnt take them out as much as she claims which would also explain why they are overweight.

 

[Corona]

Yeah she's definitely always mentioned testosterone as a joke, as if all the other stuff she's used is much better