I feel you! I get anxiety around this time of year because of the thought of a whole year of unknown is a bit scary for me. I think there is so much pressure on being 'better' and completing resolutions.I find new years eve really triggering and I honestly don't know why, it started when I was little girl I just always ended up crying when the family would sing auld lang syne then bawl my eyes out when my grandad would go out the back door and in through the front to welcome in the new year I literally had no reason to be so upset but I couldn't help it, Even though I'll be glad see to see the back of 2022 i can already feel that I'm going have to bugger off up to bed before midnight and leave them to it because it just brings out the misery in me even now as an adult
Were you over stimulated as a kid maybe? I had an epiphany the other day that the reason I get so much anxiety around christmas time is because christmas when I was a kid was so chaotic, we didn't have a second to breath. I just remember being so stressed and stimulated on christmas day and feeling all the adults' stress around me.