So, this is the first time contributing to this thread after reading since day dot. I've loved reading everyone's stories and experiences. Sadly I have mine, resulting from losing my sister a few weeks ago. She passed away from cancer while I was travelling, we were told we would have longer than we did and she insisted I went and it kills me I didn't get to say bye. I was in part of the world where I couldn't connect to internet, only by WiFi and the whole trip I was ok. They Day she died I ssd frantic, everywhere trying to connect to WiFi and overwhelmed with a feeling of panic. There were butterflies everywhere where there hasn't been up to that point. A huge black cloud went over the clear blue sky and we went to a cafe, thinking it would rain.i connected to wifi and saw my mum had been calling to say she had died.
Since then, so much stuff has happened, so much. today I started crying and with that a song came on classic FM that was played at her funeral - a song that shouldn't be on classic FM. Each week I light a candle at the time she died. The candle goes crazy and the TV flickers. Lady week my dog started reacting like there was someone there and it was only me in the house. The candle I burn is the same candle we had burning in the room where she was waked. I get the smell in my house, that's fair enough, I have the same candle that I burn once a week but I have smelled it in my workplace and both my mum and I have woken in the night in my parents house being surrounded by the smell of the candle. The smell lingers and vanishes (I live in a different country to my parents and sister). When I was home for the funeral, I stayed up late watching TV and when I went to bed I could smell the candle in the hallway.
Then the dreams- I dreamed I got flowers for her memorial service- bird of paradise, she wouldn't have been keen on them to be honest, and then when her ashes came home her husband had bought a bunch of the same flowers for next to her urn, I dreamed I bought her a map of the world tea towel,so weird, and her son, my nephew, in Canada, was telling me there's a homeware shop in Canada that sold loads of stuff that she would have loved, and then they have weird stuff too..like map of the world tea towels...I hadn't said a word to him. So odd.
I need to add, I'm a scientist and will very much search for the reason behind certain things. I also appreciate that every never goes , that is a scientific certainty, so the energy that makes a person who they are can never ever be destroyed. My heart is broken but I take comfort in knowing ages still lurking around x