I've just put Uncanny on, which reminded me there's something I've been meaning to say, which in its own way is rather odd but just shows you how many "Sliding Doors" moments happen in life without us ever realising it.
So, I began reading this thread, and the full thread prior to it, months ago. I was intrigued by all of your stories, and could feel the sense of camaraderie between everyone, as this was, and is, a safe space for people to share their experiences without fear of judgment. Having had a few (for want of a better word) "odd" things happen in my own life I've always believed there's more to our human existence that our physical presence on earth. Everything is made up of energy, and (for me at least anyway) I don't believe that energy just dissipates when a person passes away. I've always felt very strongly drawn to the spirit world, the occult, and just anything which many people would brush off as fantasy. Ghosts, magic, reincarnation, vampires, fairies ect were the theme of the many books I'd borrow from the library as a child, and these were not children's book. My favourite film as an 8 year old was Poltergeist. And I know what your thinking, why is a child if 8 being allowed to watch that? Well, as I said, I was quite an advanced reader as a child, not afraid of anything, and very persistent. Also things were different back then and my parents have said they knew I wasn't a "normal" child lol. Most of the kids in my street avoided me and thought I was weird. In hindsight they were probably not wrong.
Anyway, after reading this thread one day back towards the end of August I saw Uncanny being discussed, I had no idea what it was and due to autism and ADHD I really struggle to listen to podcasts, but I thought I'd give it a bash to listen to as I was doing my textile based work (I make Cosplays, costumes ect) and usually listen to music so I thought I'd give up with the podcast after ten minutes. I ended up listening to both series of it, and the Battersea Poltergeist within a few days. Upon finishing I was feeling rather despondent and was going to start it all over again when I was recommended a podcast about Scottish witches on the same app, I had heard the Scottish First Ministers apology regarding historical accusations of witchcraft back in the late 1500s to 1700s on International Women's Day last year, but I didn't pay much attention as I had no idea what she was on about. I decided to give the podcast a go, and oh, my god, did something inside me fundamentally shift. If anyone hasn't listened to it it's called Witches Of Scotland and it's incredible. I can't even begin to explain the rabbit hole it has led me down, I began researching the history of witch craft, and the accusations made in countries all over the world, like crazy and also listened to the BBC Sounds podcast called "Witch".
A few days into September I went to Edinburgh on holiday for a week to do all the touristy stuff with my daughter as she hadn't been to the castle ect since she was a young child. Over 300 "witches" were burned on Castle hill. Just standing there, knowing what those innocent women and men (80% of those accused were women) went through was horrific. I won't spoil any of the podcasts by going into further detail but for me, it changed me. The thing is, those accused and convicted couldn't have been witches, yes they may have been what we would call nowadays pagan, or wiccan ect, had alternative beliefs but the things they were accused of we now know are impossible, and would be laughed out if court. But back then people were terrified of witches, fairies (they weren't the nice wee Tinkerbell kind) and anything out of the norm. If you were a midwife, a healer, had an argument with your neighbour, looked at someone the wrong way you could end up being accused of witch craft.
As I said, I've always felt really drawn to that kind of thing, and have spent the past two months learning everything I can about the witch trials, and just occult beliefs in general. In Edinburgh we took our daughter to just about every ghosty type tourist attraction we could fit in, both vault locations, the Dungeons, Mary Kings Close, the Witches Well, the Castle, Greyfriars Kirk, and the whole time I couldn't stop thinking about what it would have been like to be an accused witch, locked in the tollbooth jail next to St Giles Cathedral, sometimes for months on end in a tiny, pitch black room, going up to court and being convicted and being taken up the Royal Mile to the hill in front of Edinburgh castle only to see the pile of firewood and the noose where your life would end in the most horrendous of ways. We actually stayed next to the town where the very first witch trial kicked off, unbeknown to me when booking it months before. Berwick.
I'm gonna stop blabbering on now but if anyone's looking for something to listen to give both the Scottish Witch Trial and Witch (by India Rauksen) a bash. I've began studying witchcraft both in historical terms, and in practice. Not to perform "magic" per say, but upon learning more about it I realise I've been practicing it pretty much my whole life without realising. I also discovered witch trials that involved my ancestors. The lot of it has changed my perspective on so many issues such as women's rights to spell casting (which I used to think was nonsense but now realise we cast spells subconsciously every single day, from things like asking the universe for help finding our keys, to telling our loved ones to stay safe on long journeys ect, it's all to do with intent, the "Witch" podcast explains it much better than I can).
Thanks for coming to my T.E.D. talk on witches. I'm shutting up now.
(edited to say the whole reason for this post was to say if I hadn't read this thread I'd be none the wiser, and I'm so grateful I did because a lot of things make much more sense in my life now, so, thanks tattlers!!)