Sending lots of hugs. I would just say to try really hard in these low days to remind yourself that you don’t know that you’re not meant to meet someone. I know all too well how good our brains are at convincing us that all these scary things are real and true, but really we don’t know anything because we can’t know. Even when we think we do. Also, the idea of being “meant” for something is a concept I really have to fight against myself - I tell myself things like that sometimes and remind myself that actually since I don’t believe in god or a higher power, there is no “meant” to. Anything can happen. That’s obviously just my personal may have different viewsMorning
just feel so desperately awful and I just dont know which way to turn.
For a few days I will be so happy and upbeat and content and then it'll just all go and I will be so so low and not want to be here anymore
I am losing all hope and I really do think that I am meant to be unhappy, I see guys I like and they never like me back, some guys like me but I don't like them back. The only possible answer is that I am simply not meant to be loved. Why do I get tortured by not having one good relationship or just any romantic prospects. I've had a hard enough life why can't the universe give me a bloody break
I'm so sorry but I'm at the end of my tether I just dont know what to do. What's the point of deluding myself and carrying on, I know im never meant to meet someone special and be loved in that way
Thanks for letting me rant x
And know that the dark days will pass. Hour by hour sometimes. I hope you can treat yourself kindly. That’s something my therapist used to say to me when I was in a complete panic triggered by anxious attachment issues - and I’d be like oh for goodness’ sake. And not to say self care is about bubble baths - but I’ve found that candles and baths and nurturing things do help. Even if sometimes all they do is pass the time. She was right!