The Depression Thread #2

[Lara98]

Totally understand, have you seen anybody, ie a gp?

Kind of, my GP knows about it. Was supposed to be having a call with the GP care Co ordinator this morning to see what sort of support is best for me but she hasn't called yet.... I have a call every 2 weeks with a psychologist from my hospital whilst I'm waiting for her to have free spaces. Then I've been put on the wait list for counselling with the fertility team near me too. So I have support in place but not beginning until August due to wait times, just in that awkward wait phase at the moment.

 

[bamboo98]

I finally told my gp that my medication wasn’t doing anything to help me and he didn’t quite believe me since I’ve tried 3 other ssri and they didn’t help either
I have to taper of the citalopram and then make a new appointment to discuss what to try next. It’s been 3 years of different medications that aren’t working so I’m thinking is there even any point of going for something else to suffer side effects but risk them not helping me.

 

[chapterthree]

Does anyone have advice on how to stop feeling sick in setraline. I’m already taking it at night but I feel like I just want to hurl…

 

[flutternutter]

@flutternutter Good luck. I was Mrs Organization last week. This week the opposite. It is true though, just tackle one job at a time. Staying focused is the tricky part.

I managed my jobs. Today I am very meh though so who knows. Might need a day off.

 

[flutternutter]

Thank you. What would you typically say in your out of office reply? Just that you’re out and will be back on X date? But then I worry what if I’m not back by then…

Im off for this very reason. I havent put a date to return

 

[ilovepizza21]

Oh my love. Last night must have been impossible. I am so glad you are here today to write that post. xxx

Edit to add this in case it helps you feel a little less alone xxx

Spoiler: poem

Thankyou beautiful I hope your doing okay didn't want my reply to you come across as I was thinking of just myself xxx

 

[Pollyanna263]

I had birth trauma due to a midwife error too. Here if you need to talk.

Sending you love xx

 

[InTheDollsHouse]

Does anyone have any good experiences with Mirtazapine? I have just been prescribed it by GP and all I can see are people that have had negative experiences - weight gain, drowsy, hallucinations....... Makes me afraid to start it

Yes, I took it for quite a while, alongside Venlafaxine.

I took it at night to help sleep and didn’t have any other side effects after the usual first couple of weeks.

I did gain weight, I found myself snacking all the time. For me, it was worth the weight gain, and I really could have made better food choices than the crap I was eating.

I found the fog lifted a bit and made things feel clearer, which was so good.

What dose are you on?
Are you taking anything else?

 

[Slaybutter]

Hi everyone.
live almost been taking my Sentra line for a week and want to know if this is normal. I’ve had some crazy side effects. I haven’t slept at all in 4 days, I can’t keep food down, I feel insane Like I have so much energy buzzing around me. My jaw is shaking all the time and I can’t stop it. I can’t sit still but I feel so odd. I know pushing through side effects should wear off but just wondered if anyone else had experienced this?

I never tried this medication. If you haven’t already you should reach out to the doctor who prescribed it. I would cut the pills in half until they e-mail or call back.

 

[bitterntwisted]

Just to chime in on CBT. I haven't done it myself, but I know that it is felt to be more helpful with behaviours as it says on the box. I can't imagine being depressed and it helping anything to that end. For me, I have been in therapy for more decades than I care to remember, but as someone who bottles things, packs them away in a box in brain for another day and doesn't tell anyone anything, talk therapy has helped. Having said that, I was at a point where I said enough of this crap I have to spew! @Agent Cooper, have you ever kept a diary/journal? Writing down your crap day and the things that bother you can help. @Slaybutter's suggestion of meditation is a good idea as well. You can find a short meditation clips on YouTube to dip your toe in. I know that is something I should dedicate my time to and I don't.

Take care of yourself, don't be hard on yourself either. Basic things like cleaning out the fridge, going for a walk or doing basic hygiene are enough for now.

 

[Loveitme]

I’m sorry you are feeling this way, it’s so tiring and difficult. I was on fluoxetine (Prozac) for some time and it did help me quite a bit. I was much more emotionally stable and worried less. I hope it works for you!

thankyou,just need to try and get a drs appointment now .Glad to hear it worked for you x

 

[Pollyanna263]

I spoke to my GP yesterday. She was really lovely and supportive and is going to change my antidepressants. Not sure if we're allowed to mention medications here, but I have to do 3 weeks on a half dose of what I'm on now, then switch to the new medication.

I think we’re okay to mention meds.

Really hope the changes helps x

 

[Carapop]

Thanks so much for sharing your experience. I really appreciate it
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I took Lexapro for a few years and found it made life more manageable. Came off it when things were going good. Then tried to go back on it last Summer. The side effects were horrendous. By day 3 I was crying down the phone to the GP. I actually couldnt cope at all. The anxiety on an ongoing basis felt more manageable than 2 weeks of feeling like that. Well done for getting through it

Gosh. I was the same. I had been on it for over a decade. Felt better and brighter. Got cocky, I guess. Came off it and then some unexpected life events rendered me entirely unable to stay afloat. I was really surprised by how strongly I reacted to reintroducing it. I didn’t have that reaction the first time around. My anxiety is still present but the edge has been taken off. Doc recommending I try something else to better manage it but i am
Terrified of starting from scratch again with an unknown. Sometimes the cure can feel worse than the disease.

please remember when doing your research of people’s personal experiences, folk are far far more inclined to write about bad experiences than good. The general consensus will look very skewed. If something is going well then you’re not likely to go online and talk about it. You won’t see word of all the people thriving.

Best of luck with it and keep us posted

 

[Rodneytrotter]

I dont know if ive posted in this thread before or if this post will even make sense.

Im tired of life. Tired of being treated like 'the bad guy'. I would never act on thoughts but weekly I get the thought of not wanting to be here.

Im on medication and under the mental health team but at the moment nothings helping. I just phoned the crisis team who told me I need to expand my friendship circle, which is easier said than done. Im not someone people want to be friends with.

I dont really know where else this post is going but I just needed vent somewhere.

So sorry to hear you are feeling so low. Do you have anyone at all you can lean on? Xx

 

[Maid22]

Flip that around - I took the dog out today

I do try, but sometimes it's bleddy hard, and I'm in that space at the moment x

 

[rainbowlemon]

Thank you both, that helps to hear

I hope you get your payments soon.

 

[Pollyanna263]

@ilovepizza21 you okay? Just saw your post on the other thread that you’re in hospital. MH or physical?
You know we’re here whatever xxxxx

 

[Sideboard Bob]

Yes i think that would help because i really struggle with the goal part of it

Is it something you always struggled with, or did you used to have goals? Maybe even thinking about that might be a good starting off point?

 

[Felix08]

Ive been advised by professionals to see a psychologist. My MH has been declining for years now with reasons unknown.
Im really want to know what I can expect when I go. Will they just talk to me about how I feel, will they try to find a cause? Just want to know what will happen..

 

[Fanny Muchmore]

I dunno - he's just home from a very posh holiday in Egypt with his fiancé so he seems happy enough