I know people have reiterated this same message throughout many threads but I’ll put it up here again with the end of this one coming close: Sonia, fyza, or anyone close to them, if you’re reading this please know this doesn’t have to be it. You CAN recover, but it won’t be in the way you want. Your online careers are over, and you’re now just broadcasting a years long mental breakdown for millions of people with no real benefit to you so you should try to fix your real life and your spiritual affairs, that’s whats salvageable, and thankfully because it’s all that matters. Whatever little crumbs you’re making from escorting I promise will not be worth it when this catches up with you in the form of so much trauma and it will, this life never ends well for anybody, there’s not a woman in this world who has come out of this well and happy and with a good ending. You’re at a point in life where you’re running twisted teenage fantasies on borrowed time, teenagers who get caught up in these unrealistic ideas have the time you don’t to change and grow and meet new people who can strengthen their change. If you don’t come to your senses in time it might be way too late for you to relearn how life should be and to heal your soul from this. You’re at the crossroads where you’re still young enough to get by being the way you are, but old enough that it may at any point ruin the rest of your life, you might miss out on the love of your life, you might miss out on family, you might miss out on the chance to learn a lucrative skill and build a career, you might miss out on the chance to do something for Allah. You might wake up when it’s too late to make any of it happen and only then will the world truly turn dark. If you’re reading this know that the people on this forum, they criticize you because they need to make sure others don’t fall in your mistakes, they’re not criticizing you out of hate or jealousy or whatever it may be, so try and detach and actually listen. Get off the internet, you could own up to your stuff publicly or you could choose not to no one cares it’s beyond repair honestly, get going to find a job or skill that can make u money, and forget about living in the 1 percentile. Aspire to have health and mental stability while you work until you’re in a good space to even think about luxury. Get to know your religion better you obv seem to like the bits you post, I’m sure there’s more you’d love in there that could help with your life. And be patient until all of it works. / that’s all. Sorry for anyone if you’re triggered and want me to hate, I felt the need to say this even once maybe something even small can come of it.