I really need someone to tell me how I can stop crying over Arthur, it has utterly consumed me, stars case is just as awful, but I don't know what it is about his that has shaken me so much, i think its the video, the voice audio and the thought of his poor mother and how much regret she must feel over her actions that led to her being apart from Arthur, she could never have foreseen it, and although she killed a man, as a mother i can't bear to think of what she must feel.
My childhood was awful, not as bad of course as Arthur or star, but there have been instances where I am reminded of my own time growing up, where I had similar things happen as to what happened to both Star and Arthur,.I just want to write some of it down just for my own sanity.
1. Made to go to the shop whilst starving hungry to buy sweets and crisps for my stepdad and his bio daughter (my little sister) to eat whilst teased that we weren't allowed any. We being me, my twin and elder sister.
2. Made by my mother to sit up late at night for step dad to deal with us for minor indiscretions, we'd be falling asleep and forced to stay awake.
3. Routinely dreading weekends and school holidays cos that equaled painful hunger.
4. Stole food from a school bin, Stole packed lunches of other kids, punished and shamed by the school instead of helped.
5. Sent to school dirty and smelly, socially ostracised because of it, shamed by teachers rather than helped.
6. Had to listen to my twin being beaten with a belt for eating a Bournville chocolate bar that belonged to one of my parents.
That's just some, and I'm gonna post this on my Facebook and shame my parents infront of everyone!!!! Not hiding anymore.
