Spent my day at the hospital for a follow up scan and to be reviewed in triage/the general overflow clinic. There’s a bit more amniotic fluid than last time. The ‘deepest pocket’ they can see measures at a normal amount but when they add all the measured pockets together it’s still low, although less low and therefore not maybe as scary. This was good news. I was to be seen in triage regardless but this time I wasn’t urgent which I’m very grateful for, but I had to watch everyone get taken before me and sit there for two hours. MrDN had packed snacks and a 1L insulated bottle of water, what a hero. But he left them in the car and the hospital parking is so bad he wasn’t even parked in the grounds, we’ve found a public car park that’s close enough that’s our backup plan. I had shovelled a sandwich in my mouth before the scan but I am permanently hungry so that was a challenge, MrDN didn’t eat at all, bless him. I kept telling him he could go he himself something.
Anyhoo, a Dr reviewed me. She was more junior than the Dr that saw me last week although wasn’t clueless or anything like that, but I did feel she was talking quite quickly. I do enjoy all this ‘woman’s right to choose’ stuff but it has me bamboozled at this point. Quite a few times she mentioned bringing my c section date forward again, from next Friday to Monday instead. But at the same time she said everything about the boy looks absolutely fine except the amount of amniotic fluid. Then she says that the earlier they get him out to greater the chance of respiratory problems, but then goes on to say the paediatricians can be there in an instant if needed and it’s not a given that there will be a problem, just a higher chance. By this point I’m starving hungry and dunno what’s for the best but also freaking out about not feeling ready, and wanting to balance cooking him as long as possible with keeping him as safe as possible and I’m thinking ‘how am I qualified to make this decision?!’. I’ve opted to leave my c-section date as it is.
I popped on the CTG before I left and that was fine. My blood pressure took a while to be read but by this point I think the hanger had got to my BP. I’m back with my own midwife tomorrow. The midwife in triage said that if they really wanted the baby out sooner they would have strongly encouraged that. I hope I’ve done the right thing. I spent Thursday as a complete emotional wreck, then spent Friday and Sunday working non stop to take my mind off things. Saturday I think I just loafed about and packed a hospital bag badly. I’ve got maybe one more day’s worth of work to do then I guess it becomes all about the baby
I was going to start my Mat Leave on 15th Sept but the boy will be here by then. Does that alter when my leave starts?
I’m so grateful and happy of course but it feels like there’s a big fish flopping about in there 
Anyone else?
turns out I have an anterior placenta (seems quite common from these threads?) which explains why the movement I’ve felt so far feels super faint!! I saw a reel on insta recently of a baby quite obviously rolling over from the outside - it looked like her whole belly was rippling so I can totally imagine baby moving doesn’t always feel like cute little flutters 
our sonographer was so so nice as well which made it so much easier.
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i did have a scan last week and everything was ok so I know my chances of something wrong is low but I just feel like I'm wishing this pregnancy away