This is quite random and not advice needed or anything but I needed to write it down to hopefully get it out my brain.
It's silly really.
I had a dream last night that was so weird. I have really vivid dreams and I always remember every single one of my dreams every morning. But I've been replaying it in my head constantly. I woke up in tears and in my dream I was sobbing.
And I have to stop myself from crying every time I think about it/picture it.
So basically, in my dream, my 4yo needed to go back in hospital. And nobody would talk to us at the hospital so I couldn't get her help and I was just pushing her round and round in a wheelchair whilst she was really ill. I kept trying 999 but it wouldn't connect and no matter where I tried to get help, nobody would help us.
So I sat her in a wheelchair next to this big pond. But Everleigh was sitting on her lap. And I left them for a minute to get help. When I came back, they were gone.
The 4yo was floating round under the water. And I pulled her out and my Dad (who isn't with us anymore) had his arms wrapped around her. Holding her and they had both passed away.
I know dreams are just silly things. But I can't stop picturing it today and it's really messing with my mind! The image of pulling them out is ingrained in my mind!
I just sat and hugged her for ages today to the point she told me she was bored
Sorry for the downer. I just needed to write it down!