This, absolutely this!
I will probably get yelled at for the following confession but here goes anyway, I was soo addicted to her stories, watching them every night before bed, every spare minute throughout the day, it sounds ridiculous now but it was a huge part of my life. I won't bore you all again with why that was but it felt at the time she was literally the only friend I had and her insta was the only thing that interested me. And I was genuinely hooked.
So much so that even now, even knowing what I know, after the silly poem I wrote about her yesterday taking the piss out of her, and even though I am completely aware of how she lies, manipulates and sells - EVEN AFTER ALL I KNOW I still have to be careful how many stories of hers I watch. Cos if I watch them too often or for too long I feel that pull to go back to following her, to forget tattle and forget everything she's done and just run back to my blissful hinchy ignorance of a few months ago.
So, now you know. Off to bed now, had to finish a mega essay for my OU course and look at the bleeding time!!!