I sometimes wonder if 2020 was so bad for her because she had nothing to distract herself from how awful she is. Before she could distract herself with trips to London, press trips, shopping and meetings but in 2020 she couldn't do any of that so she actually had to deal with herself and the voice inside her head (conscience). She always says that she loves to be busy and you know what they say, people make themselves busy and put too much on their plate to avoid difficult emotions and issues.
You'd think the opposite would be true. Remember how she never wanted to leave the Bungalow? Constantly said she preferred staying home, living the sloth life. 2020 should have been HER YEAR! No one was going anywhere, so she wasn't being "left behind" as the other girls went on press trips and had bigger opportunities. She got a million things changed around in her house, despite people being infected all over the place and the death toll sky rocketing. She didn't have to interact with anyone, which is ideal since she admits to finding it difficult to deal with most people. And she never stopped shopping. Not for one day!
The only way I think 2020 was hard for her, was in the uncertainty of her coffers continuing to be filled by her lazy antics at "influencing". Her product line bombing spectacularly. And maybe having to be alone with Ali more than usual. That's it. Before the pandemic she never wanted to go anywhere and was shattered after any event, needing days in bed to recuperate.
She loves to pretend to be busy. I don't think eye fucking yourself as you walk around a bungalow holding a camera, fluffing pillows, and slow jogging here and there is truly busy. Let's see her deal with managing a family, high paced job, helping aged parents, taking care of pets, the weekly shop, daily cooking and cleaning up, and see how she deals. Ali does everything, her staff do the rest. I guess keeping her fake tan consistently mud coloured, day in and day out, could be "busy work". Oh and running herself ragged deleting any negative feedback. That's a full time job right there.
I'd love her to be introspective enough to see the reality we all see. I'd love to think she has a conscience. See her grow. Love to see her start showing love and care towards her family, and the vulnerable all around us. If she did that, I'd be thrilled to support her. But she continues to be more self obsessed than ever before. Which considering the state of the world right now, is quite an accomplishment. To be so unmoved when you're seeing every day people losing their jobs and homes, the numbers of the dead that are dying horrible, lonely deaths. It's really incredible that she, in 2021, is still more focused on slapping down people that gently tell her her Birkin isn't new, but pre-loved. But that's Lydia in a nutshell. Lady Incorrigible of Buckinghamshire Border.
