I am so shocked and a bit late to the game, because I was beginning to think we wouldn't get a verdict this month.
I was it today with my kids and some family and soaking up all these moments that I forgot about this case and it wasn't until I saw it on a Neonatal Instagram account I follow.
I have followed this trial since before the birth of my third little baby. Before him, I had never been inside a NICU and I thought I would never be. And then, when he was 12 hours old, I found myself sobbing in my bed as they took him away to get NICU with breathing issues. He had Group B Strep twice in the end and I still feel the ramifications from the hospital stays almost a year later (he's 10 months old at the end of this month).
I haven't followed as closely lately, because it's been hard going and I still have a lot going on with me, with the 6 weeks included. Luckily, he's now discharged from paediatrics as they don't suspect any underlying immunodeficiency anymore, but he will still be monitored when it comes to infections that require antibiotics.
I immediately burst into tears reading the news and my whole body just feels shivers. It's justice for some of the families, sadly not all, but nothing will ever bring those babies back and end those parents heartache. It's heart wrenching that these babies should have been here now and causing their parents grief while they enjoy the 6 weeks.
And the damage it will deal to all past, current and future NICU families is beyond awful.
Thinking of absolutely everyone affected by this result today
