I'm around people all the time but still feel so lonely,
Me too. And I do like my own company, but today I got home from the gym, shut my front door, and just cried. When I was out and about I saw so many couples and families, and everyone has lovely decorated houses, and is in the Christmas spirit. I don't have a partner, a baby, a house, or even a pet. I'm the only one of my friends not to have at least two of those things. My friends are lovely and include me, and I love getting to see their kids grow up, but at the end of the day I go home on my own every single day and have nobody to cuddle on the sofa or just chat to about work or build a life with. To top if off, today I realised that it's been a year since I even kissed anyone. My ex cheated on me last Christmas and since then I've been getting over him, too busy at work to date, or when I have dated, it hasn't gone anywhere. It all just feels hopeless.
Don’t worry too much about Xmas in your own. I’ve done it the past 2 years because of situations involving covid and honestly I wasn’t as bad as I expected. I did a nice brunch for myself (one year full English and one with pastrys) went on a nice walk (play with all the dogs in the park lol) then came home to watch my favourite xmas films And ring/FaceTime family. Try and take the pressure off the day, and treat it as a relaxing day off all for yourself. Also both years I’ve deleted my social medias in the run up to xmas. Once I knew I’d be on my own I couldn’t bear seeing everyone out with their friends and family, but I was much happier once I had nothing to compare my situation too. Hope you manage to have a nice day regardless of the circumstancesI’m spending Christmas on my own this year, trawled supermarket sites for a Christmas dinner for one, they don’t exist, just wanted something a bit fancier than a Birds Eye chicken dinner & can’t be bothered to cook a turkey just for me with all the trimmings, people have asked what I’m doing at Christmas just said not sure yet, deep down I’m dreading it, I know I’m lucky as I have a roof over my head & a job but Christmas was always about family & I’ve moved to a new area so don’t really know anyone. I was going to go out but would be a bit sad & pathetic sitting there like billy no mates on Christmas Day
So many people spend Christmas alone. Slow cook some meat and steam some veg or pick up a fancy meal deal from somewhere like M&S?I’m spending Christmas on my own this year, trawled supermarket sites for a Christmas dinner for one, they don’t exist, just wanted something a bit fancier than a Birds Eye chicken dinner & can’t be bothered to cook a turkey just for me with all the trimmings, people have asked what I’m doing at Christmas just said not sure yet, deep down I’m dreading it, I know I’m lucky as I have a roof over my head & a job but Christmas was always about family & I’ve moved to a new area so don’t really know anyone. I was going to go out but would be a bit sad & pathetic sitting there like billy no mates on Christmas Day
