Hey milktray, I’m with you. I’ve never enjoyed Christmas as I’ve always worked it, but when I had my son I thought that I’d finally get the Christmas cheer and I’d be excited. It’s never happened. This year I’ve worked in COVID ICU, I lost my daughter at 24 weeks and I lost my Grandpa last week. My grandpa was like my Dad, he was my absolute entire world.
This year I feel nothing. I am numb. My son is 4 and he is really excited, but husband and I are struggling. The expectations from people are so much and so high. We haven’t even wrote Christmas cards or got each other presents. I just want it over with.