Not misspeaking at all
a really thoughtful post circumnavigating the quagmire that is thinspo, body positivity, disordered eating etc. I personally don't see JM as a poster girl for thinspo and I think she's just showing off. There's deffo something going on but as I attempt to join the dots, I don't think her ED has reemerged... she still seems to have a pretty good relationship with food but her general mental health seems to be teetering on the proverbial knife edge. I don't think my moment of armchair psychology is saying anything too controversial. It really is Britney all over again
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Eating disorders are sneaky af. Food is EVERYTHING, life and death everything but as someone who inherently loves food but is conversely in possession of a brain that wants me to be the best at not eating, I can confidently say that JM's food makes me feel sad. I don't see any joy in her cooking, it's like she's got a wonderful ingredient and after chucking, slinging and hoping for the best, the end result is grim, the very opposite of aesthetically pleasing. She needs to rethink her modus operandi, her shtick cos that food literally sucks the pleasure out of something we have to do multiple times a day. Good Food for Bad Days? Nope. What she thought she was doing and the end result = oxymoron on acid
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Urgh for days I've been trying to cobble together enough meaningful words about disordered eating and you know when you've got the most to say but each word, turn of phrase, thought seems inferior... THAT.
F*ck it gonna post despite head being really critical and noisy
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