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whatshesaid123
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I think holly hasn’t recovered properly from her eating issues and obvious underlying anxiety. A lot of her behaviours are what I’ve experienced myself - lots of to do lists, isolating from others, excessive focus on study and productivity. These patters of behaviour can be destructive if left to continue, I needed a push from my family to get help but hollys family don’t seem to have intervened to get her help. Obsessive behaviour is dangerous and Holly is still in the cycle. About a year ago I watched hollys videos because I felt like we were the same and in a way I used her behaviour to justify my own. But it’s not a good way to live, at some point you can’t carry on the way you are. I know she has talked about mental health before but doesn’t explicitly reference anxiety. Now I think back to how similar I was to holly and how unhappy it made me, I couldn’t go back to that - I hope that someone intervenes because it can be really dangerous to have prolonged destructive behaviour and obsessive tendencies with a diagnosis and treatment.
teflonpanda
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Honestly, Holly just doesn't seem passionate about becoming a cancer researcher at all? And cancer research strikes me as such an odd choice of subject for someone who just wants to do a Master's in order to do a Master's, if you know what I mean. I know people irl who are studying biology/pharmacy with the goal of doing cancer research someday, and they're all extremely driven and passionate about their studies, in a way that feels very different from Hollys "passion for productivity" and studying.
Though tbh I still think she deserves to get in, after all she's excelled during her undergrad at Cambridge and that has to count for something. It's just that I can't understand her reasoning behind pursuing this particular Master's degree. Feels like she's just chasing things that will look good on paper.
Though tbh I still think she deserves to get in, after all she's excelled during her undergrad at Cambridge and that has to count for something. It's just that I can't understand her reasoning behind pursuing this particular Master's degree. Feels like she's just chasing things that will look good on paper.
schmetterling
Well-known member
She also had that very irritating video where she said (paraphrasing because I can't be arsed to find it) something like 'depression is a choice'
This sounds like they're anti vaxxers... I have legitimately never heard anyone say that about birth control... don't agree with maybe (also ridiculous) but not to believe in.... if Holly shares these views how the hell could she study something medical?!
I've seen what other people have say about her reading, and I agree up to a point about her possibly turning it into another productivity challenge etc, but I actually think that it may be the healthiest thing she's doing atm, for two reasons:
1) she said in the video where she reviewed the first batch of books she read over lockdown something like she 'got lost' (as in 'was completely absorbed') when reading, and I think it's great that she has found a way to get a break from her head for even a short amount of time
2) reading may be the thing that opens up her world the most and enables her to learn about a variety of people from different places who live differently to her, as well as people who face some of the same struggles that she does. At least two of the books in her pile were explicitly about mental illness (OCD), which is something that she will have learnt more about, and this will also be the case for other topics, like racism, religion and absuive relationships
I was actually impressed that not many of the books were YA fiction, and at a glance she did seem to have quite a good mix.
In short, reading could actually be a lifeline for her.
1) she said in the video where she reviewed the first batch of books she read over lockdown something like she 'got lost' (as in 'was completely absorbed') when reading, and I think it's great that she has found a way to get a break from her head for even a short amount of time
2) reading may be the thing that opens up her world the most and enables her to learn about a variety of people from different places who live differently to her, as well as people who face some of the same struggles that she does. At least two of the books in her pile were explicitly about mental illness (OCD), which is something that she will have learnt more about, and this will also be the case for other topics, like racism, religion and absuive relationships
I was actually impressed that not many of the books were YA fiction, and at a glance she did seem to have quite a good mix.
In short, reading could actually be a lifeline for her.
schmetterling
Well-known member
Her latest video really really irritated me gahh! She is SO smug that she got what she wanted - which is a course perfectly designed (for the time being) so that she doesn't have to address ANY of her issues. Also, raw peanut butter on unseasoned parboiled potatoes is fucking disgusting eeerghh
Livelaughlove123456
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reading, watching, listening to things purely for entertainment and leisure is so important for relaxing and winding down.
without this I feel like she’s not exposed to different lives/relationships/stories.. makes her very very sheltered
without this I feel like she’s not exposed to different lives/relationships/stories.. makes her very very sheltered
the fact that Holly said on her recent video that on her down/low days she won’t want to be around her family or talk to anyone seems so sad to me. If anything, she should really try and talk about it. I get talking to family can be tricky but at the end of the day it needs to be done. She really doesn’t seem to know how to just talk and process, and fully be comfortable with herself. It’s sad to watch.
3calico3
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It's a very superficial way of thinking: to chop and change fields based purely on the prestige of the one university you apply to. Most people would apply to university A for course X, then if they got rejected, would look into studying X elsewhere. Few people would jump to the conclusion that both the university and the course were the problem.
Bellamerrell
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They dont believe in antibiotics either do they. Emily was against Isotretinoin for ages, but now she is finally on it so maybe she is changing her ways.
CalatheaLater
Chatty Member
I watched it, it was really her just talking about the different men she spoke to whilst in Aus.
I feel like the whole point of the video was about how she'd never had a proper conversation with a man before her Aus trip, and she was a bit anxious about talking to men, but she felt it was good for her to be able to open up and speak to men in even a platonic way. On the whole I thought it was good for her to talk about coming out of her shell. However, I think it shows how sheltered she is that she makes such a song and dance about just having conversations with people. There were no juicy stories...
I feel like the whole point of the video was about how she'd never had a proper conversation with a man before her Aus trip, and she was a bit anxious about talking to men, but she felt it was good for her to be able to open up and speak to men in even a platonic way. On the whole I thought it was good for her to talk about coming out of her shell. However, I think it shows how sheltered she is that she makes such a song and dance about just having conversations with people. There were no juicy stories...
macrofriendly
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It's really nitpicking but I even noticed in her London vlog that when she ate at the food truck at Boxpark she went for just the veg and rice when there were 3 different options that had tofu and veg for only an extra £1. What's the betting she just went for the veg because it's less calories.
not fussed at all
Well-known member
Don't know if it's been mentioned already, but I still find it so weird her mum laughed when she got rejected from TUM. Like.... that's a weird response, right?
schmetterling
Well-known member
all those raw veg... how on earth do her bowels process the fibre... it just looks like the food she eats at home.
I also feel like when she 'goes out to eat' it's so performative? Like we see her taking a big bite and saying 'mmmm' whilst trying to look enthusiastic and then the camera cuts away! I have a suspicion that she never finishes her meals.
I also feel like when she 'goes out to eat' it's so performative? Like we see her taking a big bite and saying 'mmmm' whilst trying to look enthusiastic and then the camera cuts away! I have a suspicion that she never finishes her meals.
3calico3
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That would explain why the dogs get so excited when anyone so much as looks at them. I bet that they got two dogs (presumably from the same litter too) because they knew that leaving a single dog in a blank room would cause issues with loneliness. I know people who only allow their dogs in certain rooms (e.g. no dogs in bedrooms), but to isolate them in such a bleak-looking space all the time? Very odd.
It’s a response to one of the comments further down on that same video!!
also I think ‘I’ve never done that’ is her saying ‘I’ve never put salt on my food before, even before going vegan’. I just think that’s silly though, because surely her parents were cooking for her when she was younger, and I don’t doubt they put salt in her food.
She also specifically requests food to be cooked without salt (she defo used to do this at her college formals in Cambridge). Now that's strange. Unless you have a high cholesterol, ‘no salt’ isn’t a dietary requirement.