Jesus, friends are hard as an adult. I got friendly with a woman I was volunteering with last year, we arranged to go for a coffee and a walk one time and I realised that she was just a walking red flag. She told me that she threatened to report her friends for child abuse for smoking FFS, and there was a few other things like that. There's often people who complain to me about others then I realise they're are the actual problem. I haven't seen her volunteering for months now, so it's been easy to put some distance there.
I have another sort of 'ex-friend' who I've known since 6th form. I haven't seen her in person since before the lockdown in 2020. I think covid really showed me who I could go for years without seeing. If I'm completely honest with myself, we have very little in common and it was my mistake to think that anyone I got on with would think like me. We have different backgrounds, different views on things like politics (which I'm sure before Brexit never mattered) and we've lived in different towns for over a decade. Our friendship made more sense when we lived in the same town and studied at the same place as it gave us things in common.
She's been to visit me maybe two or three times over these years, I travelled to see her the rest of the time. That made sense, but it doesn't now, I just don't have the spare time in my weekend to spend 3 hours on three different types of transport to get to her house, and she's made it clear she doesn't want to travel down, so I thought that's that. Fair enough on her part- she has a young child and a job, husband- all the usual stuff in your 30's.
She got in touch with me about two years ago to arrange something. I said fine, let me know which weekends would work for you and she never got back to me. She did something similar last year. She got in touch a few weeks ago this time saying she'd come down to see me (maybe she's realised?!) but didn't set a firm date, so I can guarantee I'll never see this woman again. Why do people make half arsed plans they have no intention of following through on? I wouldn't judge her if she ghosted me, frankly.