I wish I had something more useful to say, but you‘re really not a child and there’s nothing twatty about what you’re saying.
I totally get what you’re saying, it’s hard for people who’ve not had this kind of illness to understand, but it’s such a crutch. To the point where part of the recovery process really needs to focus on that more.
Your illness and your actions as a result of that aren’t *you*, but because its such a coping mechanism, I know how much it can feel like it is. I understand how overwhelming this appointment must be, I really do, but if you feel able to, do you think you could explain to them what you‘ve told us? About why it’s going to be hard for you to stop? There’s no shame in it, at all. And then they’ll have a better idea of the kind of help and support you need.
It’s a really cruel and deep-rooted illness, but you’re trying your best (the fact that you’re looking to us for support and identifying potential barriers to recovery shows that). There is hope
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