I've got that agitated feeling again, similar to the end of March when we were just waiting for lockdown and there was all that speculation build up.
I'm in Tier 4 and at this point am fully expecting an announcement tomorrow that Primary Schools are to remain closed.
I had a phone call today from a friend who had recieved news that a relative of their's had died overnight from Covid. They lived in London, died at home quite suddenly (they had tested positive in the last week). They were late thirties with only mild asthma.
Like others I feel odd at the moment. I'm usually so optimistic but it just all seems so bleak. Endless time stretching out in front of us with no real idea of when it will improve, yet alongside it the unsettling feeling that things are going to get worse in the short term.
I'm looking forward to going back to work on Monday. I've missed the routine over Christmas. I keep reminding myself that I am fortunate in so many ways but because the feeling of bleakness isn't linked to my own personal circumstances but rather the state of the world due to Covid and the consequences of it, it's hard to overcome it, if that makes sense.
I hope people don't mind me sharing. The last thing I'd want is to make people feel more anxious but there's no one I can really talk to about it. I tried to explain it to my husband but his response was basically that that's just how it is, suck it up. Which obviously I realise is kind of true but it wasn't very helpful!