What you’re going through is so tough, and it sounds like you’re really stuck in a restriction cycle (been there many times!).
Calorie calculating can be a misleading in itself- the apps and counting methods we use are only an estimate, and the amount of calories we burn through per day just existing (eg. Breathing, digesting, heart beating, cell production) is well over the amount you’re consuming. It can be really confusing trying to figure out how much to eat without taking into account the energy needs of the body outside of what we’re burning through exercise.
So I’d say that the days you’re having where you’re trying to eat very little are one of the biggest contributors to how hungry and out of control you feel after, because your body is going into survival mode in an attempt to regain some of the energy it requires just to function.
Berating yourself and calling yourself an idiot (which I am so guilty of doing at times too) is unhelpful here and it’s only going to exacerbate how difficult this situation is for you. I’d really highly recommend checking out some social media accounts that can give you an insight into what your body needs and how you can break out of this cycle. Ben Carpenter is a really good person to start with to give you some education on this! Sending big hugs, you’re not alone x
Calorie calculating can be a misleading in itself- the apps and counting methods we use are only an estimate, and the amount of calories we burn through per day just existing (eg. Breathing, digesting, heart beating, cell production) is well over the amount you’re consuming. It can be really confusing trying to figure out how much to eat without taking into account the energy needs of the body outside of what we’re burning through exercise.
So I’d say that the days you’re having where you’re trying to eat very little are one of the biggest contributors to how hungry and out of control you feel after, because your body is going into survival mode in an attempt to regain some of the energy it requires just to function.
Berating yourself and calling yourself an idiot (which I am so guilty of doing at times too) is unhelpful here and it’s only going to exacerbate how difficult this situation is for you. I’d really highly recommend checking out some social media accounts that can give you an insight into what your body needs and how you can break out of this cycle. Ben Carpenter is a really good person to start with to give you some education on this! Sending big hugs, you’re not alone x
Just letting off steam, no need to reply.
I just need to let off some steam and needed to write down my thoughts.
I’ve been injured for almost three months so can’t run or exercise like normal and this is sending me off it. I have been in this situation before but ran through it(which ended in a very expensive course of treatment). The lack of control and constant pain is turning me into a horrid person. I am spending all my free time calculating stuff on MFP, working out how little I can eat. I go a few days eating 500/600 calories and then am so hungry, eat a huge pot of fat free yoghurt or healthy ice cream (because that’s ok isn’t it). I’m such a bleeping mess. I’m 42. I have no idea how to be an adult about this, my wife is struggling at work and I’m being the biggest self- indulgent idiot with all this shite. It needs to stop. I need to stop. I can’t. I can’t focus on anything but food. All I think about at work is is how calories the members are eating or how many I am burning. This is horrendous.
Apologies.