TW: ED, mental health
hello everyone! i didn't know alivia had her own thread
oh gosh, where do i start?
like some of you, i started watching her videos around 2018-2019ish, i think it was around the beginning of the first season of the glow up diaries that she had a couple of viral videos that apparently everyone got recommended by youtube itself, or at least that's how i met her videos
then she stopped posting more episodes, but during 2020 she filmed other different videos about how to boost your self esteem, healthy recipes and so on (which didn't went as good as the series but anyways)
now, looking at season 2 and looking at all that raw footage from last year, she was clearly not okay but still doing those motivational videos, i guess for monetary reasons (most of them were sponsored)
looking back at her instagram, she only posted a picture in 2020 (and it was about her breakfast that day), or maybe she removed every post from 2020, either way, it is very concerning, because the image she tries to sell on instagram, doesn't match the one she shows on youtube
on instagram you can see her being very thin, skinny, doing yoga poses, her in shanghai (that was ages ago right? why doesn't she acknowledge that or at least tag it as a throwback?).
in the first episode of season 2, she even posted about going to a ballet performance in which she couldn't stop thinking about food and dessert, while on instagram, she posted just the highlights, her next to the orchestra, looking good and fine (here: )
i must admit that i have never experienced an ED in my life, but still, i noticed that something was wrong about her series. after finishing the first episode of season 2, i read through her comments and man, people were concerned. everyone noticed she has clearly a mental illness and that she should go to therapy.
i was about to continue the series, watching the recently released episode 2, but before watching it i scrolled down to the comments and people were taken aback by the video..."this should be tagged as TW" "please, go to therapy" "you have switched your binge eating disorder to orthorexia"....etc. etc. apparently at some point in her video (and as some of you have noticed in her IG live) she's against therapy because she thinks that with good motivational quotes and some strength she can get over anything
i'm really concerned and worried now. she seems very reluctant to accept others' opinions, constructive criticisms and advices, but she needs help.